Thursday, January 31, 2008

Heath Ledger's Death (My POV)

One of my blogger buddy left a comment asking me to write something of my own regarding the tragic passing of Australian actor Heath Ledger.

Well, honestly, i just figure i'd post since i was so surprise by his death.
He was indeed a great actor, no doubt about that. I still remember i like him a lot when he first hit the Tinseltown with his debut "TEN THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU" despite his bad hair, and he look absolutely gorgeous in "THE PATRIOT", but he kinda fades away slowly although he did come out with the Academy Awards nominated "MONSTERBALL", but it was when he played the infamous Ennis del Mar in Ang Lee's "BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN" that regain my interest toward him.

I don't really have much to say about his death but he did show a lot of promising talent and potentials, his role as The JOKER of the new BATMAN BEGINS: THE DARK NIGHT has got everyone talking. But sadly, he left so suddenly, which is a shame.

That's as much as i could say regarding his death, i'll always remember him as the torn Ennis del Mar.

Lil' Mama (feat. Chris Brown & T-Pain) - Shawty Get Loose

New video by Lil' Mama, Chris Brown and T-Pain.
I can't believe i'm saying this but Lil' Mama looks hot!
Kinda reminds me of Raven Symone...with a slimmer figure, that is.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Taipei Commuter

Sarcastic/My life

Lately, my life is so boring i wished i stayed in Taiwan.
I mean, the moment i reach my "home sweet home",
all that welcomed me was a living room filed with a bunch of mess,
and a room filled with dust bunnies the size of watermelon.

Sigh...after a week of dust and wash and wipe and shine,
and enduring the wrath of dust, which i am highly allergic to,
the house looks sparkling shine, but i wonder how long will this last.

Anyway, i wanna share a great news,
i just received my full result today,
and guess what, the grades i received were really good,
i mean, it's been eons since i last receive any result transcript without a fail in it,
like...since high school, i couldn't remember the last time i ever passed my maths and physics.

Right before i came home, the day when i reached Taipei by train (a 4 hours pain-in-the-ass ride), i kinda drift along the underground shopping mall. All the damn luggage the girls brought with them nearly killed my shoulder, so i sat down on one of the bench, idling tapping on my laptop while the girls browse shoes and bras.

It was then i saw a couple walk past by. A male-male couple. One Caucasian and another Chinese, they were content enough to hold each others hand and when they saw me staring, they just smile back warmly. I don't know, the whole scene of the couple holding hands so lovingly made me sob.

There i was, sobbing like a moron on an underground strip mall, while people stared at me like i have 2 heads. The country i came from, good ol' Malaysia probably won't tolerate this kind of "obscenity", since i found out that even the fashion critic page featured on THE STAR every Sunday had all the cleavages of the celebs featured blurred out. Maybe that's the reason why i cried, since it's like i found a newfound hope that there are people, real people in this world who accept me for who i am.

The scene also reminds me of my relationship with Mr. H. Back then, we were loving, but still, although i blame his ego and being a chauvinist pig are the main reasons i hate him, i realized that ultimately, it is me myself that i hated most, or being so annoying and dependent.
If i could only turn back time, i would, just to say i'm sorry, but i guess it's really too late for that now. What's done is done. I don't know, maybe i'll live my old age with a bunch of dogs (as women-cats), or maybe another guy next to me.

I know it's still too early to talk about relationship and "love" at the age of 18 (less than 2 weeks into 19). But still, i don't know. All the failed relationship i come to heard of from my blogger buddies, my friends made me felt as if my future is kinda bleak. I know what i want in my life, like being a lecturer/dabbling in the media world or whatever, but if there's one thing that i can never control, is that a relationship.


One friend of mine, S, discussed about certain stuff in his blog that sent me a jolt.
I know i passed my results with flying colors, but doing what i do now is the right thing?
All my life, i made all sorts of mistakes. I gave up on some opportunities that comes once in a lifetime, i made bad choices, i gave up precious stuff that matters, i know they said eveything happen for a reason, but what is the reason?

"What is the purpose of life? This is a question constantly popping up under these circumstances. It's something like you throw a stone forwards, race towards it, pick it up, and throw it forwards again. That action drives you forward, but what are you running into? A better life? Or something you only dared to dream since childhood?" by JySim.

After months of dabbling in this degree, i still wonder if it's the right thing to do. Does my future bright enough, will i be...i'm not saying i wanna be some successful gazillionaire, but at least success in my own term, a good person. I've been throwing stones forward all my life, but am i chasing the right stuff? It's not like i'm a medic student, that there are only two purpose in life, a doctor or a lecturer. My future is like, maybe a lecturer, maybe something else, but still, if i ever made wrong choices again, it'll be a mistake that'll last forever in my life.

Well, since it's winter vacation, i'm gonna stop from thinking too much. Off to watch SpongeBob Squarepants now. Ciao! Will keep updating.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Heath Ledger passed away

Actor Heath Ledger found dead at 28

NEW YORK (AFP) — Actor Heath Ledger, 28, who rocketed to fame in his role as a gay cowboy in the Oscar-winning movie "Brokeback Mountain," was found dead in his New York residence on Tuesday, police said.

Police sources told US media that prescription pills were found in the apartment and said signs pointed to either an accidental overdose or suicide. His family in his native Australia described the death as "accidental."

"We, Heath's family, can confirm the very tragic, untimely and accidental passing of our dearly loved son, brother and doting father of Matilda," said the actor's father Kim Ledger, reading a statement outside the family home in Perth. "He was found peacefully asleep in his New York apartment."

"He was a down-to-earth, generous, kind-hearted, life-loving, unselfish individual who was extremely inspirational to many."

Ledger was found dead at 3:26 pm (2036 GMT) Tuesday in an apartment in the posh district of SoHo, a New York police spokesman said. Neighbors said Ledger had been renting the SoHo loft apartment for the past several months.

An autopsy was scheduled for Wednesday.

New York City deputy police commissioner Paul Browne said a masseuse and a housekeeper discovered the actor's body after the masseuse arrived for an appointment.

They were "waiting for him to come out of the bedroom. When he didn't come out, they checked on him and found the body at the foot of the bed," Browne told reporters.

"There were prescription medications that included sleeping pills that were taken from the apartment. The reports that they were scattered around the body were untrue," said Browne.

"The police department has made no determination as to the cause of death," he said, stressing that police were awaiting the medical examiner's report.

Expressions of sorrow poured in from Sydney to Hollywood.

Australia's Prime Minister Kevin Rudd said it was "tragic that we have lost one of our nation's finest actors in the prime of his life."

"The studio is stunned and devastated by this tragic news," Warner Brothers chief Alan Horn and Warner Bros Picture Group president Jeff Robinov said in a statement.

"The entertainment community has lost an enormous talent. Heath was a brilliant actor and an exceptional person. Our hearts go out to his family and friends."

Kim Ledger said while the family was grateful for the tributes, they wanted to grieve in private.

Ledger, who was nominated for a best actor Oscar for his performance in the 2005 film "Brokeback Mountain," had separated from his former fiancee Michelle Williams in September. The pair, who met on the set of the Ang Lee-directed drama, have a two-year-old daughter, Matilda Rose.

Ledger had been working this month on his latest movie, "The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus," directed by Terry Gilliam, which was due out next year. He also portrays The Joker in the upcoming Batman movie "Dark Knight."

Lee had hailed Ledger's performance in "Brokeback Mountain" as a "miracle" of acting, reminiscent of a young Marlon Brando.

Ledger missed out on the Oscar for best actor in 2006, but "Brokeback Mountain" won three Academy Awards, including for best director.

The flaxen-haired heart throb first came to prominence by acting as a homosexual athlete in a little-known Australian soap opera, "Sweat," in 1996.

The creator and writer of the series, John Rapsey, once said it was clear even then that Ledger, then a 16-year-old sports champion and high school dropout, possessed an unusual talent.

"He himself had absolutely no problem playing the role. He handled all of that with great aplomb," Rapsey told AFP.

"What was noticeable about him was he was concentrated, very quiet, and you could see that he was really observant of other people."

Ledger never attended acting school and left his home state of Western Australia for Sydney as a teenager.

"The one thing that's got me to where I'm sitting is my instincts, you know, and I'm impatient. I didn't want to wait for years to work. I wanted to just get out there and do it," he told Australian television in 2001.

At 19, Ledger left Sydney for Hollywood, where his talent was spotted by Mel Gibson when auditioning 500 actors for the role of his son in "The Patriot" -- a break that led to his leading role in "A Knight's Tale."

"I had such great hope for him," Gibson said in a statement. "He was just taking off and to lose his life at such a young age is a tragic loss. My thoughts and prayers are with him and his family."

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Home at last..

Well, i'm home, safe and sound, although the tremors i felt during the flight via China Airlines still send chills down my spine. Can't blame me, but fear is not the only emotion i experience during the flight, the kid who sit behind me, with her mother annoyed me so much, i swear i really want to throw them out of the plane. They kept kicking my seat, bawling like nobody's business, and complain on everything but their own noises that they made. Sheesh, i don't care how cute the kid look, i want to kill him.

Anyway, being back is great, will keep posting.

Thursday, January 17, 2008


Home, is where the heart is,
well, i guess that saying is as true as i could get.
(honestly, i have not the slightest idea what the heck that means)

Anyway, i'm kinda excited, cuz tomorrow is THE day,
winter vacation!!! Muahahahaha!!!!!

But the bad news is....i'll be flying via CHINA AIRLINES................................................................
Wish me luck.......


Tuesday, January 08, 2008


Well, i've made up my mind.

From next semester onwards, i'm gonna:

1. Lean how to swim and at the same time, learn to love it.
2. Run/Jog for at least 30-45 minutes 4 days per week.
3. Drink more water.
4. Eat less (well, at least i have to stay away from all those deep fried stuff)
5. Sleep earlier
6. Cycle more.

Well, wish me luck.

Sunday, January 06, 2008

Sarah Brightman I Will Be With You (Where The Lost Ones Go) [Ending for Pokemon Movie 2007 - ディアルガVSパルキアVSダークラ]

I Will Be With You (featuring Chris Thompson)

Leave and let me go
You're not meant for me, I know
Carry on, carry on, and I'll stay strong

Leave and let me go
I will think of you, I know
But carry on, carry on, and I'll stay strong

Someone else will keep you warm from now on
Someone else will keep you safe from the storm
But I'll be with you wherever you go
So you will never be alone
I'm going where the wind blows
Going where the lost ones go

I will be with you
I'm losing the love I found
Crying without a sound
Where have you gone?

I will be with you
You were my fool for love
Sent me from high above
You were the oneI will be with you
I'm going where the wind blows
Going where the lost ones go

Leave and let me go
Don't look back just let me know
You'll carry on, carry on, you must stay strong

Nothing ever looks the same in the light
Nothing ever seems to quite turn out right
But when you realize that you have been loved
You will never be alone
I'm going where the wind blows
Going where the lost ones go

I will be with you
I'm losing the love I found
Crying without a sound
Where have you gone?

I will be with you
You were my fool for love
Sent me from high above
You were the one
I will be with you
I'm going where the wind blows
Going where the lost ones go

Leave and let me go
Baby I can't come along
Carry on, carry on, you must stay strong

Thursday, January 03, 2008

RM3000/Month in Malaysia? Boleh ah??

Can a family man with Salary RM3,000 survive in Malaysia

Let's do some simple calculations here.

In Malaysia, the average family income is RM3,000 /month
(where father works, mother doesn't).

I understand there are many families whose
monthly income does not reach RM3,000,
but, to make things simple,
let's take RM3,000 as the figure. Ok lah, right?

Okay, let's start rolling with a family which has
Papa, Mama, 1 daughter and 1 son. Ngam-ngam ....

Calculation starts...

Electricity and water bill: RM100
(No air-con, No home theatre, No water heater ... ok?)

Phone bill ( Telekom): RM100

Meals for a happy family: RM775
(3 meals on RM25/day, RM25 for 4 persons...?)

Papa makan / teh-tarik during working hrs: RM155
(RM5/day, RM5 ... can eat what?)

Car repayment: RM400
(A proton saga aeroback, 7 yrs repayment)

Petrol (living in city, traffic-jam): RM300
(go to work, bring son to school,
only can afford one car running)

Insurance: RM650
(kids, wife and myself)

House repayment: RM750
(low cost housing repayment for 30 yrs,
retired still have to work to pay!)

Tuition: RM80
(got that cheap meh? i don't think so)

Older children pocket money @ school: RM20
(RM1/day, eat bread?)

School fees: RM30
(enough ah?)

School books and etc: RM100
(always got extra to pay in school)

Younger children milk powder: RM50
(cannot have the DHA, BHA, PHA one, expensive)

Miscellaneous: RM100
(shampoo, rice, sauce, toilet paper)

Oh wait!!! I have to stop here, so...
No Astro,
no movie @ cinema,
no DVD,
no CD,
no online,
cannot KFC,
cannot McDonald,
cannot go Park walk during weekend (petrol expensive),
no chit chat on phone with grandparents, and etc...

Let's use a calculator to total up... WALAO EH! Shit! RM3,610 already...

EPF belum potong, income tax lagi........oledi RM3,610 ....

How to survive lah tuan-tuan dan puan-puan sekalian ???

Our Deputy Prime Minister asked us to change lifestyle?

How to change? Don't eat? Don't work? Don't send children to school and study?

Besides that, I believe in Malaysia population, there are millions of rakyat Malaysia which still don't earn RM3,000/month!!!

What is this? Inilah Malaysia Boleh... Sorry ... it should be Malaysians Boleh , because we're still alive and kicking!!

Our politicians must be mad!!!!

Please comment boleh or tak boleh. No wonder so many Ah Loong around lah....

Wednesday, January 02, 2008


First of all, Happy New Year to all those who make the effort of dropping by to read the crap i wrote.

My friend, the guy whom i'm head over heels in love with,
but he's straight though....anyway, that's not the point.

He said something on Integrated English class that makes me...i don't know,
think? (i think the proper word is...Inspired)

"才華,樣貌,財富皆具備的人就比較有優勢嗎? 我不覺得,應為上天很公平,他給每個人的時間都是一樣的,時間就可以造就出以上所提及的"

Translation: Is it real that those who blessed with talent, perfect physical attributes and wealth have more advantages compare to those who who lacks all the above? I think not, since God is fair in his blessings as everyone are blessed equally with a certain life span, and the time we have enable us to make up for all those which we lacks.

Honestly, i don't think it's true, at all. All my life, i saw tons of those who are equip with a perfect face and figure got off being more popular and has a lot of advantages than those who don't.
Sure, i'm one of those who don't dress sharp, doesn't give a damn about keeping myself fit or anything, but, even with all the time i have in my life, i won't have the chance to get people to look at me twice, since i'm not cute (unless i go under the knives aka. cosmetic surgery)

Having more time, to me, is a pain itself. Sure, i can make money, and sure, i have certain talents that most still doesn't really appreciate, but all i ask for is that someone like me for who i am, not by the outer shell.

Buddha used to say that a flesh/body is something that we have temporary ownership, and all will be return to the very earth after we perish, i guess Buddha lives in a world when everyone is blind, and there aren't any cute people around.

I don't really care if i look like a puff up pig, but it seems no one look at me twice since i don't have those messy weird hairdo that everyone in the world sports nowadays, or that i wear anything trendy or wear a giant earring despite me being a guy.

Ok, ok, here i go again, blabbering away out of anger for no reason.
But really, even if, say, we CAN make up for the physical thing, but, since God is so fair,and everyone get their fair share of time, it also means that those who were blessed with all the great stuff will have more time to waste away while those who doesn't waste their whole life working for something that they have no idea if they'll even achieve at all.

And by the way, i'm sick of those goddamn Greek/Roman myths which always starts an intro of some characters by "Divine/Beauty/Handsome/" etc. Why, aren't there any who aren't cute? Sheesh....oh, right, there's Pan, but all the Gods hate him. Oh well..