Babble, Blah, Blah(s)

Me

2010-01-01T23:57:00.002+08:00

2009-08-28T18:30:00.002+08:00

Nude

2009-08-19T15:04:00.002+08:00

I got to admit,
besides Facebook, i have a couple of
personals accounts scattered all over the internet,
ranging from sites such as twitter, friendster,
and the Gay Dating site: Fridae.

Initially, joined the site for only one purpose,
to read the articles pen by one of my favourite author
Mr. O-Young Wen Feng.
But, i kinda roam around the site,
and what do you know, i made some friends there.

Ok, if you really know the real Wyatt,
you'd know that he NEVER (ok, sometimes) compliment
on something on his blog.
I love that site, sure, whats with all the nice people
i got to know there,
but what irks me is that, does everyone HAVE to
post partial nude pictures showing off their muscles or whatever?
Worst, some even post pictures of...*GASP* their
lower body clad in underwear.

Um...ok, i know what you guys thinking
and this issue of me on the nude pics weren't sparked
by jealousy (ok, maybe a little, but i'm proud of my brain, not a empty shell
on a mannequin-perfect body),
but it's kinda offensive, not in the sense of them clad in almost nothing,
but offensive to me, and maybe some people out there
(though i wouldn't really count on that)
who are not shallow, judgemental or anything.
I mean, i don't send message to a person based solely on how
hunky they are, and i ain't looking for
mindless sex, but i got to say, most are.

Thankfully, i've had my share of nice people
whom i enjoy conversing with.

Argh.
Story of my life,
being gay requires you to put muscles on your body,
just so you'd get people's attention.
Sigh...sad.
And all those stupid gay prides claim that they are promoting
gay rights, with sissy guys clad in speedos and underwears hoarding the streets,
while i, the nerd and outcast in the gay world being treated
as no more than a plank on the street.
Is that really the image you wanna convey to the already
wary-of-gay public??

Sad.

XOXO

2009-08-18T16:08:00.004+08:00

Ok, so i've been up to literally nothing lately,
boring boring boring.

Aside from finishing the entire Twilight Saga, including the
online only Midnight Sun, i've started on my book.
Ok, when i say started, i mean i'm writing one.

I still vaguely remember the manuscript i had a few years ago,
finished like 50 pages and kinda lost it.
Sigh...they say shattered dreams.
I'd say my muse bailed on me.
Dang it, what the heck am i muttering here.

So, ok, i've been working on it on and off,
and might pitch it to my professors and some editors,
but i guess chances of it getting publish is...well,
one could only hope.

Besides reading thrashy teen novels,
and writing my book (on and off),
facebook, fridae, gmail and that oh so addictive guilty pleasure
Gossip Girl make up most of my 12 hours here in my
parents' BORING office.

Man, can't wait to get back to school.
Weird, never thought i'd missed school,
throw me back a few years and i will think i lost my mind.

Hmm..

That's about it i guess.
You know you love me,
XOXO
Gossip...Guy(?)

[I'm being vain, naive and delusional here, probably i'm the only person to read this piece of crap.]

On Cloud Nine

2009-08-11T14:56:00.002+08:00

I've made up my mind to blabber on this platform once a fortnight from now on.
Anyway, i've been on cloud nine lately.

Met this really wonderful angel.
Who knew, there are pure, genuine, sincere people out there!

By the way, my heart goes out to those who lost their lives,
love ones, home, or anything for that matter, in the flash flood
in the southern part of Taiwan.
I love Taiwanese, they're the strongest people i've come to know.
I'm sure they'll get back on their feet in no time.

God Bless~

Homphobic Violence

2009-08-03T11:44:00.002+08:00

This is sad. LGBT deserves the right to live. We never taunt those religious and ultra conservative people, but why do they always lashes us with hate and violence? Did God teach them to hate and kill? What kind of God/Religion is that?

TEL AVIV (Reuters) - A gunman sprayed automatic fire at an Israeli club for gay teenagers on Saturday, killing two people and wounding at least eight, police and witnesses said.

The shooting spree in central Tel Aviv set off a citywide security clampdown, reviving memories of Palestinian attacks that have ebbed in recent years. But a police spokesman said that the incident was "criminal, rather than nationalistic."

Citing witnesses, Israeli television said a black-clad, masked gunman stormed into the Tel Aviv Gay and Lesbian Association building and opened fire in a basement room where teenage homosexuals were holding a weekly support group.

Most of the casualties were minors, the police spokesman said, adding that the assailant was believed to have used an automatic weapon such as an M-16 rifle.

"This is an unprecedented event for Israel and for the community," association director May Pamel told Channel 10 TV.

"We have joined the roster of 'civilized' countries where hatred is the standard."

Coastal, cosmopolitan Tel Aviv has a bustling gay scene, but open homosexuality is less welcome in conservative areas of the Jewish state. Annual gay pride parades in Jerusalem meet with often violent protests from ultra-Orthodox Jews.

Tel Aviv police chief Shachar Ayalon stopped short of branding the shooting a hate crime remarks to reporters.

But one protester at the scene held up a placard blaming a powerful religious Jewish political party whose members have regularly inveighed against gays.

Israeli media said police had warned other gay clubs in Tel Aviv to close for fear of a follow-up attack.

(Writing by Dan Williams; Editing by Michael Roddy)

Update.

2009-07-30T17:44:00.002+08:00

Hmm...It's been like, what? A month since i last made any posting here.
Guess there's just not enough motivation for me to actually post anything.
Anyway, enough of my blabbering, to you who stop by every now and then,
please leave a message just so i know that people are still reading my blog.
Sounds vain? LOL! See it as a plea, por favor~

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Ever since the Beng Hock incident, it seems every major who(s) in the political scene jump to the
"Justice for Beng Hock" bandwagon. Interesting.

Although i pity the deceased, and truly am horrified like the rest of Malaysia regarding the conspiracies strung in the country, i just couldn't shake off the feeling that the whos and whos in the political scene who are busy putting up banners and coming out with embarrassing antics
like screaming profanities on the street are doing that just so they could earn a vote or two
from sympathetics over the country. Politics, no one's really on the good/light side.

All in all, my late sympathy to the family and friends of Yap Beng Hock. RIP~

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Beloved Malay director Yasmin Ahmad passed away a few days ago.
Sad. She's one of the rare Malaysian director which i admire, both her as a public figure who fight hard in the unity of Malaysian and her work, portraying the harmonious Malaysia albeit races and religions.

Once again, RIP~

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It seems June and July mark the passing of many great public figures. Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett are two others who sadly left the world for a better place. A lot of people might
snort at the freakishness of Michael Jackson these past few years, but i never look pass him as more than a great philanthropist who support world peace in songs like Heal The World.

Although i was never really a fan of his, but i do felt sorry for him, living under constant scrutiny of the public eyes. May he rest in peace now.

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For the past 6 days, i took part in the Taiwanese Higher Education Fair held in both Hotel Istana, Kuala Lumpur and Kluang, Johor.

Part 1: Kuala Lumpur

I never really like going to the capital city of Malaysia, for it's a filthy city filled with foul smell and horrible, messy streets which are constantly overcrowded.

I mean, Malaysia, come on, do ya'll know how misleading the overplayed "Malaysia Truly Asia" ad is? The moment you step down of the Puduraya Bus Station, a pungent smell (a blend of piss, smoke, cigarettes, dust and whatever the heck is) hits the nose. Then there's Bintang Walk, one of the most crowded shopping district in KL, filthy streets, trash littering along the roadside, people offering massage, selling fake Vuitton, Gucci, and Rolex, which is a disgrace to the image of a metropolitan city. Then, the worst thing is, even the fountain well behind Suria KLCC, (which held the title as the second tallest building in the world), is overflown with rubbish and probably spit (i walked by some dude who just "ptui!" a wad of spit into the pool of water). What does that say about Malaysia? Instead of splurging gazillion Ringgit in putting up fake ads, why not use the money to elevate the physical image of the country's capital?

Look at Taipei 101, man, Taipei might be crowded as well, but for some reason, it's tidier and way better in terms of cleanliness.

Leaders of Malaysia, please stop babbling ridiculous political crap and freshen up the icky city.

Part 2: Kluang, Johor

Nothing much to say about this quiet little city.
Although surprisingly, i met plenty of great people throughout the 2 day event whom are surely growing as life-long friends.

And, one thing that surprises me is that, the one person that i loathe in the past ended up as a great person, 2 days worth of time together sure changes my perspectives a lot.

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Anyway, that's all for now.
Ooo...btw, shout out to F.O.S (Factory Outlet Store),
found out that they carry my faves labels!
GAP, Old Navy, Banana Republic, DSquared2, Nautica, Dockers, Juicy Couture etc.. for a price that made me cried Hallelujah!!!

LOL!

No offense intended.

Fort Worth Police Chief: That Faggot Had It Coming

2009-07-03T15:37:00.002+08:00

It's been like a month since my last post, and i doubt that anyone would even care. Anyway, here's a piece of news that makes my tummy churns more than the sight of a graffiti which spells "Love is for Heterosexuals" in a filthy street of Kuala Lumpur last night after i came back for my summer break from school.

Most residents of Fort Worth have never even seen the inside of a gay bar. Fort Worth's police chief Jeff Halstead is counting on that fact—counting on the average person's ignorance about gay bars and certain stereotypes about gay men—to get a half a dozen Forth Worth police officers off the hook for conducting a violent raid on a Forth Worth gay bar, the Rainbow Lounge, late last Saturday night. Seven men were arrested during the raid, which took place on the 40th anniversary of the raid on the Stonewall Inn that kick-started the modern gay rights movement, and one of those men—Chad Gibson—remains in intensive care with a brain injury. Gibson may not survive.

The officers who raided the Rainbow Lounge claim that the men in the bar made "advances" on them—and Forth Worth's police chief is backing them up:

Monday, police chief Jeff Halstead said the officers' actions are being investigated. However, he also said that officers that entered the bar during the scheduled inspection were touched inappropriately.
"You're touched and advanced in certain ways by people inside the bar, that's offensive," he said. "I'm happy with the restraint used when they were contacted like that."

Allow me to translate the chief's comments: "Them faggots in that thar bar touched mah officers and now they're complainin' about some rough stuff and one little ol' faggot with a brain injury? Those perverts should be grateful they're alive."

This is a classic example of the Gay Panic Defense. In the very recent past all a straight man who brutally murdered a gay man had to say was, "He made a pass at me!", and the jury would ignore the evidence and let the murderer off. The Gay Panic Defense doesn't fly in many courts of law these days but it still has currency in the court of public opinion. And the chief of police in Forth Worth, a major U.S. city, is attempting to use the Gay Panic Defense to convince the citizens of Fort Worth to ignore the evidence—to ignore photographic evidence and credible eyewitness accounts—and let his officers off.

And you'll never guess who the police are accusing of being the groper: Chad Gibson, the one man arrested at the Rainbow Lounge who can't defend himself and may never be able to give his side of the story. But another person at the bar witnessed Gibson's arrest:

"They were hyped up. They were loaded for bear," said Todd Camp, a veteran journalist who was there celebrating his birthday with friends. "They were just randomly grabbing people, telling them they were drunk."
Camp told me he has been in bars during TABC/police "checks" before, "and it was never anything like this." Usually, he said, officers discreetly walk through, looking for anybody who has had too much. This was different. "They were shoving patrons," Camp said, "asking, 'How much have you had to drink?'"

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"[Gibson] was taken down hard," said Camp, with "four or five" officers wrestling him to the floor inside the club. Cellphone photos shot by patrons and posted to blogs show a person being held facedown by officers in a short hallway inside the club, then show a dent in the wall where his head was apparently banged.

The police claim that Gibson wasn't injured when those four or five cops slammed him to the floor of the bar, but after his arrest, when, drunk and handcuffed, Gibson somehow fell and hit his head on the pavement outside the bar.

All of this is bullshit.

I've been in a million gay bars. I've been in gay bars on multiple occasions when the police came in to check everyone's IDs and make sure no minors were being served. Gay men don't grope police officers when they enter gay bars. I find it inconceivable that the gay men drinking in the Rainbow Lounge in Fort Worth responded to a raid by attempting to grope the police officers. This "they groped us!" shit is a lie. As the owner of the bar, J.R. Schrock, put it at the protest the night after the raid:

"The groping of the police officer—really? We're gay, but we're not dumb," Schrock said to the crowd that gathered at the bar Sunday afternoon. "That is a lie, and I am appalled by it."

Jeff Halstead can't be allowed to use the Gay Panic Defense. His officers weren't groped, no one was "touched and advanced." Homophobic cops raided a gay bar, roughed up the patrons, and a young man is in the hospital and may die.

Some will say that this was just an ill-timed raid on a gay bar in Texas, of all places, one that got out of control. So what's the big deal? But this is exactly the kind of state-sponsored violence that gays and lesbians fought back against at Stonewall 40 years ago. Gay men all over the country are going to have to speak up and defend the patrons of the Rainbow Lounge. We can't allow the chief of police in Fort Worth to use the Gay Panic Defense or exploit stereotypes about gay men—so sexually reckless that they can't even keep their hands off cops during a raid!—to get away with violating the civil rights of gay men in Fort Worth or murdering Chad Gibson.

UPDATE: More on Chad Gibson's condition:

Chad Gibson, the 26-year-old Fort Worth resident who wound up in John Peter Smith Hospital in the intensive care unit after a law enforcement raid on a gay bar over the weekend, remains in danger with a blood clot on his brain. Dallas Voice senior editor Tammye Nash reports on the newspaper's blog, Instant Tea, that Gibson's sister, Kristy Morgan, told her a CAT scan had revealed the blood clot has quit growing, but it is still considered a life-threatening situation. Until the clot dissolves, there is a danger that the clot could break off and cause severe brain damage or death. A rupture of the clot could also start bleeding again.
The blood clot could take from six months to two years to dissolve, according to the update. Gibson, shown in a picture from facebook.com, will likely remain in the hospital for the rest of the week and will be referred to a neurosurgeon for follow-up treatment. Surgery is reportedly not being considered at this time.

Discussion is under way about the establishment of a medical fund to assist Gibson. His hospital bill will undoubtedly be enormous, and it is unlikely that he will ever recover any of those medical expenses from the City of Fort Worth. Police officers and other government employees are protected by state law from liability in any legal action that arises in connection with the performance of their official duties, unless they are involved in misconduct or broke laws.

UPDATE 2: Someone needs to put this follow-up question to Fort Worth's police chief:

If Chad Gibson—the 160-pound, 26-year-old gay man that it took five of your officers to subdue—groped one of your officers, and if it was Gibson's lewd action that caused your officers to go absolutely apeshit, then surely Gibson—who is in an intensive care unit and may not survive his injuries—was charged with assault, right?

Wrong:

Officers then went to the Rainbow Lounge, which had opened about a week ago. They encountered two drunk people who made "sexually explicit movements" toward officers and another who grabbed a TABC agent's groin, according to the police report.
No one was arrested for assault but about half a dozen people were arrested on charges of public intoxication, according to police records. Police Chief Jeff Halstead said Gibson was the patron who grabbed at the agent's groin.

So... Chad Gibson sexually assaulted a Fort Worth police officer and, according to the Fort Worth's chief of police, Gibson's assault not only prompted but justified the actions of his officers at the Rainbow Room, but... Gibson wasn't charged with assault.

Can someone please ask the chief of police to explain how that works?

UPDATE 3: Via Slog commenter jasonzenobia: The Fort Worth Police Department's email address is fwpdweb@fortworthpd.com and the number for FWPD's internal affairs office is 817.392.4270. That's the number to call to report officer misconduct. Joel Burns is the openly gay member of the Fort Worth city council and he's been all over this. You can reach him at his email is Joel.Burns@fortworthgov.org.

UPDATE 4: I've heard from folks in Fort Worth that Joel Burns' office is being slammed with furious phone calls and emails about the raid on the Rainbow Lounge and the assault on Chad Gibson. Burns, however, has taken action on this and has called for an investigation and is doing everything an openly-gay elected official is supposed to do in a circumstance like this. If you're itching to send an outraged emails, Sloggers, I'd urge you to send emails to the six Fort Worth councilmembers who haven't joined with Burns and two of his colleagues in calling for a full and independent investigation into the appalling raid on the Rainbow Lounge.

Councilmember W.B. "Zim" Zimmerman
817-392-8803
District3@fortworthgov.org

Councilmember Danny Scarth
817-392-8804
District4@fortworthgov.org

Councilmember Frank Moss
817-392-8805
District5@fortworthgov.org

Councilmember Jungus Jordan
817-392-8806
District6@fortworthgov.org

Councilmember Carter Burdette
817-392-8807
District7@fortworthgov.org

And send an email to the mayor, Mike Moncreif, who has yet to make a statement:

Mayor Mike Moncrief
817-392-6118
mike.moncrief@fortworthgov.org

Tell them the whole country is shocked and outraged and that you're appalled by their failure to join their colleagues Joel Burns, Sal Espino, and Kathleen Hicks in calling for an investigation into the raid on the Rainbow Lounge and the assault on Chad Gibson.

Princess Venetian - Outer Space

2009-06-06T18:34:00.001+08:00

This is a parody of Lady GaGa's Poker Face. Damn video gave me a few LOLs in the midst of my painstaking finals prep. LOL!

Pussycat Dolls - Hush Hush (I will Survive) [Official Video with Perez Hilton)

2009-05-27T13:48:00.001+08:00

Pussycat Dolls Ft. Nicole Scherzinger - Hush Hush [New]
by Lemongol

Won't Back Down - help repeal Prop 8

2009-05-27T13:34:00.001+08:00

http://www.wontbackdown.org

Even though the California Supreme Court upheld Prop 8 and same-sex couples can no longer marry, we won't back down.

Kim Kardashian's Reaction to H8

2009-05-27T13:23:00.001+08:00

Kim Kardashian (Keeping up with the Kardashians) took to her official website to voice her disappointment on Tuesday morning's discriminatory ruling against gay and lesbian Americans.

She says:

"Today the California Supreme Court decided to uphold Prop 8, outlawing gay marriage in California. This really makes me sad. I thought we were more forward thinking than this, and I'm disappointed in the Supreme Court for being so closed minded. Everyone.. gay, straight, bisexual, transgendered, EVERYONE should have equal rights to marry who they want to. I have many gay friends and all I want is for them to be happy, yet this is just another obstacle in their way. Now they must continue fighting to be granted a basic civil right that many people take for granted. Shame on you, California! We must all continue to fight the h8!"

Gibbons vetoes domestic partnerships bill

2009-05-27T02:11:00.002+08:00

CARSON CITY – Gov. Jim Gibbons has vetoed a domestic partners bill to give gay couples some of the same rights enjoyed by those who are married.

The governor said Senate Bill 283 “would effectively bypass that constitutional mandate by allowing the rights and privileges of marriage to be bestowed upon non-married persons.”

Sen. David Parks, D-Las Vegas, the sponsor of the bill, said previously he would talk with leadership to determine if an attempt will be made to override the veto.

The bill was approved 12-9 in the Senate and 26-14 in the Assembly. A two-thirds vote is required to override the governor’s veto.

The governor also vetoed two other bills, dealing with regional planning in Washoe County and setting standards for medical care for state prison inmates.

So far the governor has disapproved nine bills this session and he is starting to catch up with the record of 12 vetoed by Gov. Bob List in 1981. And the governor is just getting the tax bills that he promised to veto.

The domestic partners bill provides couples, either of the same sex or couples of opposite sex who are not married, such rights as community property, responsibility for debts and the right to seek alimony in a split up.

A couple would be required to register with the Secretary of State’s Office and pay a fee. The bill says a private and public employer would not be required to provide health care benefits to a domestic partner of an employer.

The governor said the Nevada Constitution, in an amendment approved by voters, provides that “only a marriage between a male and a female person shall be recognized and given effect in this state.”

Gibbons said, “I believe that because the voters have determined that the rights of marriage should apply only to married couples, only the voters should determine whether those rights should equally apply to domestic partners.”

Voters in 2002 approved a constitutional amendment that a marriage should only be between a man and a woman. Supporters of the bill said this was about contract rights and not about marriage.

The governor said many of the same rights granted in the bill “are readily available today by way of private contracts.”

The governor said this veto “should not be taken to suggest that domestic partners are in any way undeserving the rights and protections.” He said he recently signed Senate Bill 207, which prohibits discrimination based on sexual orientation.

The governor also disapproved Assembly Bill 473, which requires the state Department of Corrections to adopt regulations on medical emergencies and the provision of medical and dental services to prisoners.

He said these requirements are already in the law. He said existing law already requires the director of the Department of Corrections to take “proper measures to protect the health and safety of staff and offenders in the institutions and facilities of the department.”

The governor said the corrections director is already required to establish standards for personal hygiene of offenders as well as standards for medical and dental services.

Assembly Bill 473 passed the Assembly 36-6 and the Senate 18-3.

Gibbons also vetoed a bill to require Washoe County to require in its comprehensive regional plan the amount of water that will serve the population.

The governor said existing law already ordered that regional planning in Washoe County must take into effect conservation including the use and protection of water resources. He said this bill is “redundant and unnecessary.”

Assembly Bill 119 cleared the Senate 27-14 and 12-9 in the Senate.

(courtesy of the Las Vegas Sun)

Equality

2009-05-27T01:52:00.002+08:00

When will people realize that men are create equal and are all equally entitled to whatever basic human rights?

No one asked for the church or religion bodies to alter their teachings or whatever, the only thing we ask for, is that we are protected by the law.

And yet, conservative religious freaks everywhere spread out religious craps to protest the legislation of Gay Marriage.

God create men equally. God loves everyone equally. No one in this world should be deprived off his/her rights.

Will they ever understands??

California Upholds Proposition 8

2009-05-27T01:47:00.002+08:00

The Supreme Court of California has officially upheld the anti-gay marriage Proposition 8, which was passed by voters last November. Backed by conservative and religious groups, Proposition 8 limits marriage to a man and a woman. However, 18,000 gay marriages performed in 2008 will be upheld. The CA Supreme Court's 6-to1 ruling was announced at 10:00 AM PST with the release of a massive, 186-page document. The Court voted unanimously to preserve the marriages of nearly twenty-thousand gay couples. Only Justice Carlos Moreno (formerly the only Democrat on the California Supreme court) voted to strike down Proposition 8.

NoH8 (No Hate) Campaign

2009-05-27T01:43:00.001+08:00

All over California (and across the U.S.), dozens of rallies will be held in reaction of the state Supreme Court's decision this morning to uphold Proposition 8.

Gay and lesbian residents of this state are being denied the same rights, privileges and protections that heterosexual couples have when they marry civilly.

That is NOT right! That is not fair! That is wrong wrong wrong!

This is about equality!

The Lady Noire Affair by Christian Dior

2009-05-26T02:23:00.004+08:00

The Dior fashion house broadcasted on the Internet a 6 minute 30 second thriller on the 20th of May, directed by Olivier Dahan starring Marion Cotillard, muse of the legendary Lady Dior handbag.

Marion play a wonderfully dressed femme fatale and it’s almost like watching a 6 ½ minute Hitchcock film.

The idea behind the campaign is to turn Dior back into an iconic brand, with products that have a true iconic status.

On the mini film John Galliano commented:

“We wanted to capture the glamour, the intrigue, the heroine and the mysterious allure that radiates around her, Marion has brought the Dior woman to life. She is incredible.”

A print campaign will accompany the film and there may even be another chapter to the it.

I know for a fact that my mom will faint of excitement for she absolutely adores the bag!

Upset

2009-05-26T01:40:00.001+08:00

I feel lighter all over after languishing some burden i've been carrying while at the same time loathing for the past semester.

Despite that,
i still feel hollow and empty,
and slightly on the fence of being very upset...over nothing.
Jeez...

I'll post about them when i have the time to do so.

Hollow

2009-05-20T02:26:00.002+08:00

I don't know what's gotten into me today,
i just felt like a piece of crap throughout the day.

After chatting with June just now,
i kinda felt better,
but i still couldn't shake away the hollow, empty feeling
that's been haunting me all day...

Sigh...

So many obligations,
yet,
i felt lost,
without any sense of direction...

P/S: i want one of the Albert Einstein bobble head which i saw in the Nights At The Museum 2: Smithsonian Night trailer. They gave me a chuckle or two.

Hilary Duff - Fly

Any moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of your yesterday

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing and take control?

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try
Cause it's your time
Time to fly

All your worries, leave them somewhere else
Find a dream you can follow
Reach for something when there's nothing left
And the world's feeling hallow

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing and take control?

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try
'Cause it's your time
Time to fly

And when you're down and feel alone,
Just want to run away
Trust yourself and don't give up
You know you better than anyone else

Any moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of yesterday

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try
Fly
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try
'cause it's your time
time to fly

Any moment, everything can change

I want a Hermes Jypsiere!!!

2009-05-19T03:00:00.005+08:00

While my mom is the proud owner of 2 Hermes Birkin in blue and pink togo and a Kelly, it took her more than 4 years to get the bags. Jeez... To think that people are so crazy about some stuff made out of leather...well, at least that's the way my perception is...until i laid my eyes on the gorgeous Hermes Jypsiere Messenger Bag.

The bag is somewhat a messenger bag carved out of a Birkin, but its design is simple, unisex and subtle, which is a breathe of fresh air compare to bag that literally splash their logos all over the bag, which could get a tad boring.

So, being the naive dude i always am, i asked my mom to check out the bag for me at a Hermes boutique, guess what? The friggin bag cost the same amount of money as a Birkin!!! Jeez... And on top of that, there's a wait list as well. Sad... One could only hope... Sigh... Now i understand why people are so crazy about Hermes, they have the "oomph" which makes people go all agag with their presence. Subtle, trendy yet classy. Ahh...if only i were Posh Spice, who, according to some media myths, she herself owned up to a hundred Birkin and Kelly. I want one in coffee togo leather!!!

Hellish Summer Heat

2009-05-18T01:50:00.002+08:00

Heat scorch down,
fiery as hell;
i smell,
i sweat,
but i ain't losing fat;
moaning sound,
all around,
complaining of the goddamn heat,
with stinky feet,
and sweaty cheek;
i gotta say,

I HATE SUMMER!!!!!

Fendi Floral Box Clutch

2009-05-16T03:03:00.002+08:00

I'm always a Vuitton-Gucci kind of guy, so Fendi never really works for me, but when i lay eyes on this gorgeous little clutch at purseblog.com, i know i had to blog about it. It's gorgeously designed with silk roses on the exterior, which are all in a very soft, sensuous color and they exudes a very elegant yet flirty fashion. The price tag, on the other hand, well, let's just say it's not really worth it. LOL!

I know my mom would hate it, since she loves huge hobos which she could basically stuff everything inside without giving much thought.

Duh.

2009-05-16T01:37:00.004+08:00

Ah, it's been quite a while since the last time i blab about how horrendous my life is. Well, ya'll know how my life is (well, figures, as if anyone reads my blog anyway), busy busy busy with a schedule jam-packed with tons of obligations.

Anyway, despite all those stuff which i bit on but are all too much for me to chew, to say the least (man, and yet my new year resolution was to NOT say yes to EVERY SINGLE request), i guess it's the right time for me to at least make a little update of my life. (Duh, as if anyone cares, at all, and that's the reason why i don't care if the title of this particular post doesn't make sense at all, since NO ONE CARES!)

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For the past few weeks, my daily diet consist of gulping down some stinky, grainy, powdery stuff with protein powder, along with 8 pills per meal every single day. Why? Let's see.

High blood pressure, check~
Urinary tract infection, check~
Bladder infection, check~
unusually fast heart rate, check~
Migraine, check~

CHECK CHECK CHECK!

I felt as if my whole body is slowly melting, falling apart.
No more coffee, no more rubbish food.
But, one thing i noticed about myself is that,
i kinda got bloated. Maybe due to my lack of exercising.
As if anyone cares about how i look or how fit i am.

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And speaking about my body. Well, for a start, i have a LOT to complain.
To be honest, i am like the least superficial person who cares more about the physical attributes of a person than their inside. For a fact, i'm totally on the opposite side of the fence. Lately, i just couldn't get over the fact that, me being the average looking Joe who doesn't have the killer pecs or model-esque looks, is completely INVISIBLE to the world.

Walking down the 100m stretch of the dorm's hallway with my friend Viecie, i felt invisible, like totally void of the surrounding. No one acknowledge my existence, but when they sees Viecie, their whole face light up, they smile at him, they chat up with him. Whenever i walk down the hallway alone? I'm lucky if i could even get the dogs sunbathing on the field to look at me at all!

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For the countless times, i tried real hard to convince myself that people do actually appreciate me as an individual, and gives me the opportunity to do something that they believe i could do well.

Uh, so wrong.

Last week was a prom thingie for the graduating seniors. Prior to the event, no one approach me for any assistance at all. Now i know why. The day of the event, i was asked to be in charge of the DV camera (the easiet, most useless job). I know for a fact that Roy from my class was set to perform, but when i saw him onstage along with a band and looking all polished and everything, i got sour and envious.

Does anyone knows i could sing well and hit the right notes along with exact pronunciation? Does anyone care to even ask? I want to be in a band, i want people to know, that i could also sing. I'm not jealous of them singing on the stage or anything, nor i crave for limelight attention, what irked me was what followed.

I was asked to audition for the role of Prof. Higgins of the play - My Fair Lady. I know perfectly for a fact that, the ONLY reason the'd even want me there was because of my native-like English pronunciation. If i was judge solely on my looks, well, don't count on them to even give me the time of the day.

Am i that ugly? Am i so average, that people actually doens't think i could sing? Are people really that shallow?

What kills me was the fact that Roy, armed with his HORRIBLE pronunciaion, was asked to audition as well! Go figures.

My self exteem just got squash, hard.

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I met a dude on some friendship/dating site.
Yes, shamelessly, i admit i use those cheesy websites to get to know people, albeit that i don't use them often, as in the last time i went on to the site, it was 3 years ago. I was having this really nice chat with a guy who sound really nice, so everything went real smoothly, and then, he asked for my picture. That's when things fall apart.

I gave him my blog, and the moment he saw what i look like (i have pictures of me here), he blocked me. Yeah, mark this, less than one minute i gave him my blog, he blocked my account!!!! Fuck! People are shallow. Do i really look all that ugly?

For one thing, this isn't really the first time. First, Hall TYS that sick son of a bitch whom i dumped 4 years ago, Zark the DH dude who sent me all the wrong signals, and dumped me with no apparent reason nor any form of explanation, and of course, Henry/Henri who doen't seem to be that much keen on nudging me ever since i came back from his place. Figures.

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So what is the upside of being loaded and armed with a brain? Who cares my wallet is a thousand dollar Armani? Who cares that i own Vuitton? Who gives a fuck that i'm actually filthy rich and could easily buy them into liking me? No, for one thing, i make it a point for people to like me for the person i am, not the materail stuff. That's why i wear the smae clothes a few time a week, i use a cheap 990 bucks Nike messenger, and i keep my Gucci and vuitton away, not wanting to be superficial for flaunting them. What do i get in return? Ignorance from people, brushing me off like i'm not worth their time.

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I'm tired. Of them, of everyone around me.
Everyone can go and screw themselves. Especially the person with either one of the 3 names i mentioned above.

Peace out!

Lisa Nova Parody: Miss "Her high Holiness, Titties Baring, Dumb Ass" California Press Conference

2009-05-14T01:08:00.002+08:00

Keith Olbermann Comments on Carrie Preejan securing her pageant title

2009-05-13T22:04:00.002+08:00

Visit msnbc.com for Breaking News, World News, and News about the Economy

Mr. Olbermann, you are friggin' awesome!

Miss California Press Conference following the decision to let her keep her Pageant title

2009-05-13T01:20:00.003+08:00

Visit msnbc.com for Breaking News, World News, and News about the Economy

Miss California USA: Carrie Preejan, in her own words after Donald Trump and the panels of the Miss California Pageant people decided she would keep her throne of Miss California.

Freedom of Speech has its limitation. Does she even know LGBTs around the world have their "freedom" to even live taken away. If preposition 8 passed, where does the freedom of the LGBT community?

Respect?

Where is the respect that LGBTs around the world rightfully deserve?

Tyra Banks Show - Gay is the New Black

2009-05-13T01:08:00.003+08:00

The Tyra Banks Show (7/5/09).
In this episode, Tyra and Sam Harris discusses issues regarding California's Proposition 8, gay issues and the title of the latest issue of LGBT leading magazine, The Advocate - "Gay is the New Black".

Tyra examines comparisons between the gay and African-American fight for equality. Tune in and find out... is gay the new black?

Come Make Pink Dot at 5/16

2009-05-10T12:50:00.002+08:00

Everyone should have the freedom to love, regardless of sexual orientation. But fear, ignorance and prejudice often stand in the way. At PinkDot, we believe the first step to overcoming these barriers is for open-minded segments of society to come together. If you too feel that LGBT (Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender) people deserve to express their love just like any other Singaporean, please join us at Hong Lim Park on 16 May 2009.

In this video, straight Singaporeans from different walks of life come together to talk about the LGBT people in their lives. Among the known faces are celebrity blogger Xiaxue, actress Pamela Oei, actors Lim Kay Siu and Lim Yu Beng, Dave Tan and Amanda Ling from local band Electrico, as well as Pink Dot's ambassadors Neo Swee Lin, Rosalyn Lee and Timothy Nga.

I cried watching this. I know for a fact that most of the people featured in the video are straight, but still, they go all out by supporting the cause of the LGBT community. A fact on why it is so different from the Taipei Pride March is that Taipei Pride steers more to a more flamboyant and sex route, which, to me doesn't really help in straighten the perspective of the public towards us. Thank you, Pink Dot for organizing such a wonderful event, and most of all, i want to thank a special person (whom i seldom speaks to but i still cherish him as a dear friend) for sending the link to this video and alert me about the event.

2NE1 - Fire

2009-05-07T15:50:00.002+08:00

I've always been a fan of really banging music in the vein of GaGa...think Dance-Hall electronica with a really great killer beat and some awesome thumping.

Introducing K-Pop newest sensation, 2NE1, a girl group from Korea who interpret every styles and substances there is in the GaGa storm and made it their own. This song is truly MAJOR! I've never like Korean pop songs, but they changed my mind!!! Bring it 2NE1, more!!!

Britain's Got Talent: Jamie Pugh - Bring Him Home [off Les Miserables]

2009-05-04T10:51:00.003+08:00

What the hell is wrong with America's Got Talent?
I mean, Britain's Got Talent spewed out REAL talents like this one over and over,
American's were...to say mediocre is an understatement.

Introducing- Jamie Pugh, a dude from Wales who drive a van by day and deliver pizza by night. He claimed to have never sing to a live audience before in his life, but his rendition of Bring Him Home of Les Miserables was tear-jerking and painstakingly gorgeous.

Check him out, he could well give Susan Boyle a run for her money.

By the way, it seems Les Miserables is the new must.
If only other shiteous reality show could produce actual talents which tops one another. Can't wait to see which other breakout star the show is gonna bring out next week.

Just What I Need (Sarcasm)

2009-05-02T21:58:00.003+08:00

Due to some health issue,
i was not able to cycle at all.
Guess what those skanks said about me?
Well, nothing, but they make faces that says
"You're a piece of crap."

Guess what, just because i wasn't there
"helping" out with their stupid rendition of "Puteri Gunung Ledang"
doesn't mean that i didn't want to go or was in any way acting out.

Well, i'm tired of explaining,
and, i'm glad i went to watch Wolverine at the theater instead of
slaving myself over the critically panned performance.
(yeah, my friends who did go, all said it was crappy food and crappy performances, and they'd much rather get themselves a beer and some snacks at some bar.)

Another thing that irked me is that those skanks won the Sisters School Poster Contest.
Ok, i'm a fairly...fair person,
if the work is any good, i bow,
but the thing is,
theirs was like shit smudging a piece of paper.

I'm not saying mine was the best,
but i got no credit for spending time translating Spanish bits by bits into Chinese
just for my Universidad Central de Venezuela poster. I mean, even the one for CY-Fair College was waaaaaayy better.
And they said the prize money is for some charity expedition to Sabah.
Well, if they were anyone else, i'd believe it,
but since its the bunch of Skanks, that's like their way of saying "showing off" expedition of "pretend to be nice so people will notice them" expedition.

God, just what i need.
A bunch of SKANKS!!!!

!2%@%$$^!@$%!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-27T10:12:00.004+08:00

Don't worry, there's nothing wrong with the title of this post.
I purposely type it that way.

I went to the ULTRA BORING novel reading class today,
and was met with another round of slammin by the fucking blind professor.
Does he really have to lambaste me with my name laid out in front of the entire fucking world?
Don't i deserve any credit for helping him, guiding him etc at all??

Sure, i didn't do well in this mid term,
which, admittedly, my fault, due to my poor time management and lack of sleep,
but does he have to go all out in slamming my dignity, stamper it, and killing
whatever flicker of faith in me altogether?
And worst, comparing me to some beggars?

Part of me simply snapped.
My health is waning and dwindling from bad to worst
(my blood pressure soared to a new height, my bladder and uterus was infected, my prostate got infected as well, and my gum wouldn't stop bleeding).

My brain simply shut down,
i just want to hang myself;
i'm sick of the fucking retarded world,
they look up on you and praises you when you're at your glory and you have all the benefits for them to leech off at,
but they simply ignore you, sneer at you, look down on you when you made some bad move and fail.

Laugh all you want ya'll fucking idiotic morons!
I simply couldn't and wouldn't care less any way.

And come to think of it,
what is the point of writing this piece of shit?
No one reads it anyway,
since people are more interested in reading some retarded gossip about hook ups and break ups in this idiotic university on BBS or whatever crap program that is.

Friends?

They care?

Really?
I wonder.

I'm in desperate need to shatter something, preferably made of glass or whatever materials that i could feel the echoes of vibration emit by the shattering of the thing into pieces of smithereens.

All of them can go and eat their own turd.

Drunk

2009-04-26T23:03:00.002+08:00

The past week was a disaster,
me ripping my mid term linguistic paper apart was truly the..."highlight"
of the week.

Anyhow, not only i've been burning myself on both ends,
i am slowly killing myself.
I need a break,
a long, hard break.

Guess what?
I did just that last friday.
Slobbering down shots after shots of margarita and martini,
and mark this, i ain't really good with alcohol,
so imagine me downing so much of those.

Argh...hangover's still hurting me after more than 48 hours.
I need some sleep...i wish i wouldn't have to wake up..

Equality for All

2009-04-23T14:49:00.000+08:00

This video put tears into my eyes.
Equality for all, Ya'll!!!!

Machael Savage - The Ultra Conservative A-Hole lashing out on the LGBT Society.

2009-04-23T14:35:00.003+08:00

The world would be a better place without A-Holes like them.
What about the people who rape and kill women?
What about all the sexual harassment,
what about all the domestic violence,
and really, i could go on with the what about-s all day long.

Did God teach us to be bias, insensitive, inconsiderate, etc?
Does being Gay is pervert???
This dude should be condemned to hell.

Gays and transexuals are not the same!
This guy is obviously sick and twisted himself.
Perez Hilton is looking for beauty with brains,
not some half witted blondie with only an empty shell of a body.

And, does asking a questions in regard with the LGBT issue meant
promoting Transexuality?? Hell no!
If he says a woman should win the pageant with her beauty and only that,
he himself is sick and pervert,
as he merely objectify a woman as something...well, sexual.

I'm lost for words with the crap spewed out of this fuck hole.
He should go to hell.

Why We Will Continue To Fight And Be Very Vocal For Equality

2009-04-23T14:21:00.001+08:00

This is absolutely heartbreaking.

Another young life lost!

11 year old Jaheem Herrera of Stone Mountain, Georgia, took his own life last week because his fellow classmates at Dunaire Elementary School harassed and bullied Herrera for thinking he was gay.

He was just 11 years old!!!

Jaheem's 10-year-old sister discovered her brother hanging from a fabric belt in his bedroom, no longer alive.

Herrera's stepfather said homophobic bullies at school would taunt and name-call his stepson, a 5th grader, repeatedly calling him "gay and a snitch." The boy was even brave enough to tell teachers and faculty at his school about the harassment, but the bullying continued.

Jaheem's tragic loss comes just weeks after the suicide of a Massachusetts boy, Carl Joseph Walker-Hoover, who also suffered bullying because classmates thought he was gay, attracted national attention.

He was 11 as well. His mother found him hanging from an extension cord in the family’s home.

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2009-04-22T13:06:00.004+08:00

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Ya'll could go and screw your heads into your ass. FUCK YA'LL!!! FUCK!!! And H__ry, you're an ass, i felt like i'm being use, cheated off my feelings; therefore, you, could also go and screw your head into your own ass!!! Everyone, Peace from yours truly..................NOT!

The Woman who shut up Simon Cowell ---> Susan Boyle!!!

2009-04-20T19:27:00.002+08:00

I know i'm kinda late at posting this, as by the time this post gets out, the popularity of this lady will still soar to a new height with her incredible talent.

I saw the video almost a week ago in Perez's blog. Man, i still got the shivers whenever i watch the videos of her singing the haunting I Dreamed a Dream from the musical Les Misérables

Go Susan!!! That said, do not judge a book solely by its cover, great talents come in packages of different sizes, and sometimes, strange packages as well.

Miss Dumb-ass USA

2009-04-20T19:24:00.002+08:00

No offense calling her a dumb ass,
but her response is too bias. Her response should have been
"Let the states decide for themselves, because United States is a country
where states rule by themselves etc"
What was she thinking??

Don't..

2009-04-20T04:14:00.002+08:00

I gave you my all, i don't expect you to accept me, as a whole.
Don't let me go.

Thanks for the memories.

The Fray - Don't Let Me Go

Texas lawmaker: Asians should change their names to make them ‘easier for Americans to deal with.’

2009-04-13T18:24:00.002+08:00

On Tuesday, State Rep. Betty Brown (R) caused a firestorm during House testimony on voter identification legislation when she said that Asian-Americans should change their names because they’re too hard to pronounce:

“Rather than everyone here having to learn Chinese — I understand it’s a rather difficult language — do you think that it would behoove you and your citizens to adopt a name that we could deal with more readily here?” Brown said.

Brown later told [Organization of Chinese Americans representative Ramey] Ko: “Can’t you see that this is something that would make it a lot easier for you and the people who are poll workers if you could adopt a name just for identification purposes that’s easier for Americans to deal with?”

Yesterday, Brown continued to resist calls to apologize. Her spokesman said that Democrats “want this to just be about race.”

I was like....um...are ya'll really THAT dumb? Sometimes, this just shows how ignorant these political assholes are.

Quote from some responses:

Most Chinese DO have an English name for idiots who can’t pronounce anything over 1 syllable. You just have to be polite enough to ASK.

…could adopt a name just for identification purposes that’s easier for Americans to deal with?”

Also, can you just forget your heritage and country’s history? While we’re at it, just go ahead and erase your entire culture and identity, it will be much easier for you. Now I want you to have the words to God Bless America memorized by tomorrow…

Holy crap what an incredibly ignorant thing to say, especially for a politician who holds power.

Translation:
“What I am trying to say is we’ve worked so hard at dumbing down Americans that the idea of them having to learn to think again is painful. I mean, it has worked so well for me.”

Tell that to Zbigniew Brzezinski.

Betty Brown: “Your name is too difficult, Zabooboo, you should change it to make it easier for us Americans.”

Brzezinski: “But I’m an American, too.”

Betty Brown: “Yeah, I’m going to call you Bubba.”

11-Year-Old Hangs Himself after Enduring Daily Anti-Gay Bullying

2009-04-13T00:43:00.001+08:00

GLSEN Calls on Schools, Nation to Embrace Solutions to Bullying Problem

NEW YORK, April 9, 2009 - An 11-year-old Massachusetts boy, Carl Joseph Walker-Hoover, hung himself Monday after enduring bullying at school, including daily taunts of being gay, despite his mother’s weekly pleas to the school to address the problem. This is at least the fourth suicide of a middle-school aged child linked to bullying this year.

Carl, a junior at New Leadership Charter School in Springfield who did not identify as gay, would have turned 12 on April 17, the same day hundreds of thousands of students will participate in the 13th annual National Day of Silence by taking some form of a vow of silence to bring attention to anti-LGBT (lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender) bullying and harassment at school. The other three known cases of suicide among middle-school students took place in Chatham, Evanston and Chicago, Ill., in the month of February.

"Our hearts go out to Carl’s mother, Sirdeaner L. Walker, and other members of Carl's family, as well as to the community suffering from this loss," GLSEN Executive Director Eliza Byard said. "As we mourn yet another tragedy involving bullying at school, we must heed Ms. Walker’s urgent call for real, systemic, effective responses to the endemic problem of bullying and harassment. Especially in this time of societal crisis, adults in schools must be alert to the heightened pressure children face, and take action to create safe learning environments for the students in their care. In order to do that effectively, as this case so tragically illustrates, schools must deal head-on with anti-gay language and behavior."

Two of the top three reasons students said their peers were most often bullied at school were actual or perceived sexual orientation and gender expression, according to From Teasing to Torment: School Climate in America, a 2005 report by GLSEN and Harris Interactive. The top reason was physical appearance.

"As was the case with Carl, you do not have to identify as gay to be attacked with anti-LGBT language," Byard said. "From their earliest years on the school playground, students learn to use anti-LGBT language as the ultimate weapon to degrade their peers. In many cases, schools and teachers either ignore the behavior or don’t know how to intervene."

Nearly 9 out of 10 LGBT youth (86.2%) reported being verbally harassed at school in the past year because of their sexual orientation, nearly half (44.1%) reported being physically harassed and about a quarter (22.1%) reported being physically assaulted, according to GLSEN’s 2007 National School Climate Survey of more than 6,000 LGBT students.

In most cases, the harassment is unreported. Nearly two-thirds of LGBT students (60.8%) who experience harassment or assault never reported the incident to the school. The most common reason given was that they didn’t believe anything would be done to address the situation. Of those who did report the incident, nearly a third (31.1%) said the school staff did nothing in response. While LGBT youth face extreme victimization, bullying in general is also a widespread problem. More than a third of middle and high school students (37%) said that bullying, name-calling or harassment is a somewhat or very serious problem at their school, according to From Teasing to Torment. Bullying is even more severe in middle school. Two-thirds of middle school students (65%) reported being assaulted or harassed in the previous year and only 41% said they felt very safe at school.

Carl's suicide comes about a year after eighth-grader Lawrence King was shot and killed by a fellow student in a California classroom, allegedly because he was gay.

GLSEN recommends four simple approaches schools can take to begin addressing bullying now.

Said Walker in the Springfield Republican: "If anything can come of this, it's that another child doesn't have to suffer like this and there can be some justice for some other child. I don't want any other parent to go through this."

About GLSEN

GLSEN, the Gay, Lesbian and Straight Education Network, is the leading national education organization focused on ensuring safe schools for all students. Established nationally in 1995, GLSEN envisions a world in which every child learns to respect and accept all people, regardless of sexual orientation or gender identity/expression. GLSEN seeks to develop school climates where difference is valued for the positive contribution it makes to creating a more vibrant and diverse community. For information on GLSEN's research, educational resources, public policy advocacy, student organizing programs and educator training initiatives, visit www.glsen.org.

Eminem - We Made You [Official Music Video]

2009-04-09T22:15:00.001+08:00

I never really like Eminem (kinda trashy), but this music video for his latest single, We Made You is simply LOL-tastic!!!

Six gay men shot to death in Iraq by tribe members

2009-04-06T02:05:00.002+08:00

BAGHDAD, Iraq (CNN) -- Six gay men were shot dead by members of their tribe in two separate incidents in the past 10 days, an official with Iraq's Interior ministry said.

In the most recent attack, two men were killed Thursday in Sadr City area of Baghdad after they were disowned by relatives, the official said.

The shootings came after a tribal meeting was held and the members decided to go after the victims.

On March 26, four additional men were fatally shot in the same city, the official said, adding that the victims had also been disowned by their relatives.

The official declined to be identified because he is not authorized to speak to the media.

Witnesses told CNN that a Sadr City cafe, which was a popular gathering spot for gays, was also set on fire.

This is sad, and wrong. My heart goes out to those men who perished.
No offense to any particular religion, but, i've said it once and i'll say it again, maybe the reason why they refuse to eat pork is because pigs are their relatives or something. What makes a religion which celebrate a celebration of some ancestors of their religion killing his own son, and kill a cow as sacrificial purpose annually for that celebration has the right to murder those innocent men??

Homosexuality was removed from the medical terms log of the U.S. in the late 70s, but i'd suggest homophobia be included as a new mental desease that needs serious medical attention as they provoke hatred, fear and murderous act.

MALAYSIAN REJECTS RACIST UMNO

2009-04-06T01:46:00.002+08:00

This is from C.Guevara, a friend of mine. Figure i should post this as well to show my support for him and my obviously lack of support for the (*Ahem*) obviously (duh, like we didn't know that already!) racist UMNO. (*Barf!*)

Let's prove to UMNO that rakyat rejects racism!
Malay voters, Chinese voters, Indian voters, Let's vote as Malaysians in the coming by-elections in Bkt Selambau, Bkt Gantang and Batang Ai!
Go Go RAKYAT MALAYSIA, vote AGAINST BN! Let's give them a wake up call...

Let the PEOPLE WIN ALL THE THREE ELECTION, NOT UMNO!

Bukit Gantang, Bukit Selambau and Batang Ai, please, vote for Pakatan Rakyat!
Dont be blinded by the release of a few ISA detainees!

Let's say it together, WE HATE RACIST UMNO!

Keira Knightly ad for Women's Aid on Domestic Violence

2009-04-03T21:42:00.002+08:00

This is a really powerful ad. Even though it's an ad, it still made me squirmed a little. After all the fiasco surrounding the beating of Rihanna, and knowing for a fact that women around the world are being treated under constant violence, it's time for us to be alert there are an average of 2 women died every week under domestic violence and countless others suffers under the hands of the brutality of domestic violence.

Lady GaGa - Poker Face [Rock Version Instrumental]

2009-04-03T21:31:00.001+08:00

God, this is so FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC!!!!

Goodbye March

2009-04-02T13:10:00.003+08:00

Flipping back my journal, i realized both (short term) relationships i had happened on March and ended on March. Coincidence? Let's just say God loves to mess with my life.

I deleted HIS photos completely from my computer for HIM;
for in my vain "definitely, maybe"thinking,
i thought i did the right thing.
I thought something great might blossom.
I thought...i thought...

The right thing...
How dumb i was for thinking that.
What'd i do that drove HIM away?
I don't know.
I'm tired of dropping hints to pry answers from HIM.

I ain't sure why,
sleeping so early these few days,
because it's not my kinda lifestyle to sleep before 2a.m.
Yet, i woke up everyday with a huge sense of wanting to puke.

Staring at my books,
piles and piles of them;
i'm not sure when did i lost affection to the one thing that help me through my life,
providing me the comfort of escaping to a place where people can't hurt me.
But i guess i've changed,
in a way i even hated who i am now.

Is it my not so good looks that drive people away?
Bah, the idioms people kept blabbering
"Don't judge a book by its cover" is so...ironic?
People i met are all judgmental and superficial.

Why'd i cover myself with a cap all the time?
People made me this way.
Belittled me like i'm some sort of crap.

I'm gonna stop now.
I guess, no matter what i say,
that son of a bitch would never ever give me the explanation for a closure that i so desperately seek.

Goodbye, March.
For 5 years in a row,
you're the most beautiful month in a year,
but at the same time,
you're the month where hell is on earth.
Ironically, March is a month when spring, summer and winter all roll as one.
There are days when the air is so warm i'd feel cheerful enough to get a walk outside,
and there are days when the air is so cold,
i just wanna crawl into my bed and sulk my life miserable away.

Goodbye.
Au Revoir!
Auf Wiedesehen.
Ciao!

Retired military officers: keep ban on gays...WTF?

2009-04-02T13:05:00.002+08:00

More than 1,000 retired military officers, including several who were top commanders, are urging President Barack Obama and Congress to maintain the law that bars gays from serving openly in the armed forces.

By DAVID CRARY

AP National Writer

NEW YORK —

Obama is consulting with the Pentagon on the issue and says he supports eventual repeal of the "don't ask, don't tell" policy, which prohibits gays in the military from being open about their sexual orientation. A bill that would allow gays to serve openly has been introduced in Congress.

A statement issued by the retired officers Tuesday said passage of that bill "would undermine recruiting and retention, impact leadership at all levels, have adverse effects on the willingness of parents who lend their sons and daughters to military service, and eventually break the All-Volunteer Force."

Among the signatories were Gen. Carl E. Mundy, Jr., a former commandant of the Marine Corps; Adm. Leighton W. Smith, a former commander of U.S. Naval Forces Europe; Gen. Charles A. Horner, who commanded U.S. aerial forces during the 1990-91 Gulf War; and Adm. Jerome L. Johnson, a former vice chief of Naval Operations.

The retired officers said they strongly supported the principle that "homosexuality is incompatible with military service" and warned that repeal of current law could jeopardize morale and "unit cohesion."

Mundy said in a telephone interview that he believed a "large segment" of currently serving officers shared the views expressed in the statement.

"We just see a great many downsides to attempting to enforce on the military something I don't know is widely accepted in American society," he said.

The statement was criticized by Aubrey Sarvis, executive director of the Servicemembers Legal Defense Network, an advocacy group seeking equal treatment of gays in the military.

"The signers of this petition are mired in the fears and politics of the past," Sarvis said. "More than 75 percent of the American public, including most younger service members as well as many active duty flag officers, realize the question is not if 'don't ask, don't tell' is repealed, but when and how."

On Sunday, Defense Secretary Robert Gates indicated that executive branch action on "don't ask, don't tell" was not imminent because he and Obama have "a lot on our plates right now."

"Let's push that one down the road a little bit," Gates said on "Fox News Sunday.The most important factor in lifting a gay ban is a clear signal from senior leadership," said Dr. Nathaniel Frank, senior research fellow at the Palm Center, a think tank at the University of California, Santa Barbara, that studies issues involving gays and the military.

"Everyone knows it's just a matter of time before the gay ban falls, so for officers to come out and say 'Gays are a threat to the military' could cause the very problems that they ostensibly fear," Frank said.

The campaign to gather the retired officers' signatures was organized by the Livonia, Mich.-based Center for Military Readiness. Its president, Elaine Donnelly, has been an outspoken foe of gays serving in the military and testified before Congress on the matter last year.

The "don't ask, don't tell" policy was put in place after President Bill Clinton tried to lift the ban on gay service members in 1993. Under the policy, the military does not ask recruits about their sexual orientation, while service members are banned from saying they are gay or bisexual, engaging in homosexual activity or trying to marry a member of the same sex.

One more reason for me to hate those homophobic shitheads.

A&F

2009-04-01T20:33:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry if this sounded crude and offended you in any way (I don't really care anyway), but i just wanna give a heartfelt wish to ya'll,

HAPPY FUCKING APRIL FOOL YA'LL!

Especially goes out to those who made me looked like a fool and kick me out of their fucking life for no apparent reasons whatsoever.

April Fool?
April Fuck sounds better.

Fanmade MV for GaGa's Boys Boys Boys & Fashion

2009-04-01T00:42:00.000+08:00

LMFAO! This is hilarious and brilliant!!

Ice Age 3: Dawn of the Dinosaurs [Trailer]

2009-03-31T01:02:00.001+08:00

Judging from the trailer alone, it's definitely a must watch for this summer. It's hilarious!!

Right to Sulk

2009-03-30T23:58:00.002+08:00

I skimmed through a couple blogs today, and it seems EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM are complaining about how miserable they are, how pathetic they are, blah, blah blah.

To me, ya'll have no right to complain.

So what you were rejected?
Been there, done that.

So what you got dumped?
Been there, done that.

So what you have a deep craving for cigarettes?
Been there, done that. (Although in my case, it's prozac that i craved)

So what you felt miserable?
Been there, done that.

So what something/someone pisses you off?
Been there, done that.

What's worst, people manipulate me, toy with my feelings, hurt me, pushes me away without even a word of explanation...the list goes on and on.

What's worst, i can't even name more than 2-3 person that i can truly count as real friends. Sure, they claim they are my friends, but i'm only their friend when they needed me for help.

So suck the fucking up, you moron, so what he doesn't love you back? Ha! How does that feels now? Being hurt by the person you fell deeply for.

You are in no position to sulk or whatever, because ya'll should just suck it up and pretend nothing's wrong, just like i do, everytime some loser like you pop into my life, fool me, toy with my feelings, and leave.

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

It's nice to know that you were there,
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

One last question,
have you ever consider the fact that i've nowhere to turn to except licking my own wounds after you left me in a miserable state?

Some parts of this post goes to the 2 person who left me full of cuts and bruises in my heart. Thank you for making me realize that the word that spell LOVE is nothing but a myth, and it's actually something venomous instead of the beautiful imagery most medias present us with.

Wisdom of Avril Lavigne: So Much For My Happy Ending (My Happy Ending)
Wisdom of Nicole Scherzinger: Happily Never After
Wisdom of Lesley Roy: Crushed

Blah

2009-03-30T22:07:00.002+08:00

So, i don't exactly have anything deep or meaningful to say (not that any of the crap i posted are meaningful anyway), but just figured i'd post a lil' update on how these few days have been in my kinda boring life.

1. Mom, being the picky shopaholic she is, added a new Vuitton to her already massive Vuitton collection, the new Monogram Kalahari, and yet she still have the nerves to complain about the budget for renovating our new home in Juru Heights. (Who ask her to hire some guy who happens to be one of the most sought after interior designer in northern M'sia?)

2. Ah, now that i think of it, i haven't yet got the time to blabber about the foreign students get together thing organized by the oversea compatriots affairs commision last Saturday. I was (kinda, sorta, not really, no...) looking forward to it, since it's free lunch and field trip for me! Or so i thought. Yay...or not. Anyway, first thing (yes, i use "thing", instead of "person") i saw when i reach the central school area are a bunch of hyenas/hippos/cows yaking away. I know, i could have use skank to describe them, but i choose not to. Skank is such an elegant word, so i wouldn't want to tarnish its reputation.

So, i thought to myself, yeah, i can deal with them being around, although they were really getting on my nerves, but i stay put, up untill when they started to perform they circus act. I ain't gonna elaborate on it, but, let's just say if i had a matchet or gun at sight, i'd kill myself to end the misery of enduring the pain of being toture by those hos.

3. Speaking about hos, i took part in the vocab contest last friday, and, much to my dismay, beyotches was running amok in the lecture hall where the contest was held. God, they're like...some kinda germs or something, they're everywhere. Being the nasty person i am, i pronounce the B word after on of the queen Beyotch walked in to the hall. Ha!

4. By the way, i kept forgetting to blog a bit about the Sexual Orientation seminar/talk thingie i attend last Tuesday. God, it was great. First time in my life where a what should be taboo subject in M'sia is openly discussed, and much to my surprise, a lot of straight as a pole administation people in the University attended the seminar! I was this close from crying because when being who you are is treated as a form of crime from where you are, it's like a relief from being restrict or something. (I'm choking back tears here. I need kleenex now!)

So, there ya go. A lil' blabber on the events of my life of the past week.

Earth Hour 2009

2009-03-29T01:47:00.004+08:00

An aerial view from Hulu Hangat. Landmark buildings such as KLCC and KL Tower observed the Lights Out event in conjunction with Earth Day 2009.
(photo courtesy of The Star.)

So, my effort in being a part of Earth Hour 2009 is by turning off my lights at 8:00p.m.
and i haven't turn it back on...well, no point turning it back on since power's out at 12:00a.m. anyway.

There, Wyatt helped saved 4 hours worth of carbon footprints.
(*Gimme a few claps ya'll! clap, clap clap!!)
Hope my teeny bit of effort would help, if not a little.

Oh...btw, i rushed to Starbucks and bought a venti caramel macchiato and i got a venti honey orange latte for free! Yes, they have this buy one free one promotion today, so, being the coffee addict i am, i made Viecie drive me to the town square's Starbucks in chilly wind and waited in line for over 40 minutes, just for the coffee. There goes 2 paper cups, 2 insulating sleeve, 2 platic cover and a plastic stand thingie for the cups. Well, at least i recycled them.

I'm huge on recycling. (Another clap for me!! Yeah!)
So, i know none of you really care to leave a comment or anything,
but i hereby urge ya'll to love the very earth that cultivates you by putting some effort in earth saving activities like recycling.

Peace.

OMFG, It's Happening.

2009-03-29T01:39:00.002+08:00

Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi will seek an audience with the Yang di Pertuan Agong on Thursday (April 2) to express his intention to step down as Prime Minister. He told delegates attending the Umno General Assembly on Saturday that he hoped the official ceremony for the handing over of power to Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak could be held the same day.
Other developments:
* Dr M to rejoin Umno.
* Najib: Judge me on my actions.
* Muhyiddin pledges to be a good and loyal No.2.
* Zahid rouses delegates with his oratory skills.
* Hishammuddin: Allow Grade A teachers to enter politics.
* Shafie: Listen to the younger generation.

OMFG, this mark the doom of the country. It's happening, the devil himself is this close from sticking his ass on the throne.

Taylor Swift - Crazier [Official Music Video]

2009-03-29T01:14:00.000+08:00

Heroes Season 3 - Cold Snap [My own Blabber and commentaries]

2009-03-27T01:06:00.004+08:00

Oh my God. This is the first time i watch the same episode of a tv show over and over for more than a dozen times. This episode of the third season of Heroes, entitled Cold Snap is like the best episode ever! The scene where Tracy Strauss let loose of her full ability of manipulating ice is awesome! God, i just couldn't stop watching the scene where her face glows and suddenly, the whole underground turns into a giant freezer with the water from the sprinkler wetting everything else. Besides the Ice-Bursting scene (as i affectionately refer it as *barf*), the comical scene where Hiro and Ando dealing with baby Matt is hilarious, and the scene where Matt uses his power to create a storybook ending for the speedster Daphne is so touching it put tears in my eyes. Aww... So sad she's dead... Oh, and they revealed the identity of Rebel!

Zits - Why i Love Blogging

2009-03-24T17:14:00.002+08:00

He has a point there.

Project Faux Newspaper

2009-03-24T15:01:00.004+08:00

This is actually a newspaper me and the gang who created the news-casting project did for our Journalistic English mid-terms last semester. Click on the picture to enlarge. The order ascent from the bottom to the top. Sorry. It's all Blogger's fault. Hehehe...

Project (Crappy) News Casting

2009-03-24T14:47:00.003+08:00

The complete video.

This is the NG version of the "interview".

This was a project created by me, Tai-Yi, Amber, Julie and Sandy. Kinda like an experimental project for our journalistic English class last semester. Turns out it was mediocre and crappy but we still had fun doin it, although it took us no more than 2 days to plan and shoot the whole crap. LOL!

Depress

2009-03-24T00:49:00.003+08:00

I don't know what hit me,
but i just need to let this out.

I hate my fucking pathetic life.
There, i said it.
If any of you reading this happens to pity me,
drop me a comment.

Please.
Want me to beg?

Just for a pile of Gucci?!

2009-03-21T23:24:00.002+08:00

I know i'm kinda late in posting this but,
i felt i had to, because this lady
is seriously crazy.
Ok, as a fellow crazed shopaholic (i can't get enough of Marc Jacobs!)
i myself am baffled over the extent the lady would go for just for 14 Gucci bags.
I mean, does all the commotions worth it at all??

Here's what happened:
Shoppers in Kaohsiung were shocked by a bizarre scene of a woman purchasing a few cab load of Gucci purses and handbags with 54 pieces of vouchers. Apparently, she collected the vouchers from her friends as well as from other purchases that she made elsewhere. Although the manager of Gucci said one person is entitle to use only one piece of voucher at a time, she refuse to budge and argue that the rule was not to be seen in the shopping guide. Things got out of hand when the people at Gucci got really suspicious of the origin of her massive amount of vouchers, and called the cops. The whole ordeal last for hours and ends with the manager apologize by kneeling down.

This lady is crazier than the lady who popped 8 babies.

Butterfly Fly Away

2009-03-21T22:52:00.003+08:00

Breaking out the tiny pod,
wondering why it is so hot;
stir a little,
shudder a while,
looking forward to a brand new life.

Caterpillar in the tree,
have you wonder who you'll be?
Can't go far
but you can dream,
pouring out in the stream,
sunshine shower,
thousand stars.

Shake not your faith,
lose not your hope;
keep your head held high,
just keep on going.

Dream you may,
wish you might;
don't you worry,
hold on tight;
there will come a day,
take those dreams,
make them come true~

Butterfly fly away~

Taipei US/Canadian Higher Education Fair 2009 (II)

2009-03-21T22:45:00.002+08:00

Remember a few post back i mentioned that i wasn't that keen on the school assigned for me for the education fair thingie? (I bet none, because no one seem to bother leaving any comments, duh!) Well, turns out Mr. James Harwood Koan (II) is a sweet guy after all. No religious tinted conversations, no barriers. In a span of 2 days, we kinda bonded. Sad i couldn't follow him over to the other two venues.

Dear Jim, i will definitely be visiting you if i travel to Phoenix.

Greta [Movie Trailer]

2009-03-21T18:35:00.002+08:00

Greta (Hilary Duff) is a trip, but she’s not a vacation. She’s sixteen, bright, beautiful and seriously rebellious, full of sarcastic wit that barely disguises the hurt inside. Pushed aside by her mother, Karen (Melissa Leo), who is on her third marriage and counting, Greta is shipped off to her grandparents for the summer, and she’s not happy about it. In fact, she tells them that she fully intends to kill herself before the summer is over and is currently compiling a notebook of suicide methods. Acerbic, yet winningly impulsive, Greta is a stunning force of nature, disrupting her grandparents’ staid and settled lives and the Jersey Shore community they live in as well. Greta falls for a charismatic, young short-order cook (Evan Ross), only to find out he’s been in and out of a juvenile correctional facility for stealing cars. Now he’s determined to do something with his life, but as their romance heats up, Greta has to overcome the concerns of her grandparents (Ellen Burstyn, Michael Murphy) about her boyfriend’s criminal past. But soon a near catastrophe gives Greta a wake-up call and demonstrates how deeply her own actions impact those around her. Greta’s growing love for her elderly grandparents, along with the excitement of her first summer romance, gradually strips away her defenses, revealing the promising, charismatic young woman underneath her shell.

Hannah Montana The Movie [Trailer]

2009-03-21T13:40:00.003+08:00

Oh man, can't wait for the movie to come out.
But first, i'll try to get my hands on the soundtrack.
Judging by the trailer, it should be way better than the candy floss,
superficial, in your face, so-sweet-its-sick High School Musical 3.

Condoms not the answer in AIDS fight, Pope says

2009-03-17T22:53:00.001+08:00

The Associated Press

ABOARD THE PAPAL PLANE -- Pope Benedict XVI said on his way to Africa Tuesday that condoms were not the answer in the continent's fight against HIV, his first explicit statement on an issue that has divided even clergy working with AIDS patients.

Benedict had never directly addressed condom use. He has said that the Roman Catholic Church is in the forefront of the battle against AIDS. The Vatican encourages sexual abstinence to fight the spread of the disease.

"You can't resolve it with the distribution of condoms," the pope told reporters aboard the Alitalia plane headed to Yaounde, Cameroon, where he will begin a seven-day pilgrimage on the continent. "On the contrary, it increases the problem."

Some priests and nuns working with those living with HIV/AIDS question the church's opposition to condoms amid the pandemic ravaging Africa.

Benedict's first papal trip to Africa will take him to Cameroon and Angola. Africa is the fastest-growing region for the Roman Catholic Church, though it competes with Islam and evangelical churches.

The pope also said Tuesday that he intends to make an appeal for "international solidarity" for Africa in the face of the global economic downturn.

He said that while the church does not propose specific economic solutions, it can give "spiritual and moral" suggestions.

Describing the current crisis as the consequence of "a deficit of ethics in economic structures," the pope said: "It is here that the church can make a contribution."

On the plane, Benedict also dismissed the notion that he was facing increasing opposition and isolation within the church, particularly after an outreach to ultraconservatives that led to his lifting the excommunication of a Holocaust-denying bishop.

"The myth of my solitude makes me laugh," the pope said, adding that he can count on a network of friends and aides whom he sees every day.

In a letter to Catholic bishops released last week, the pope made an unusual public acknowledgment of Vatican mistakes and turmoil in his church over the rehabilitation of Bishop Richard Williamson.

While acknowledging mistakes were made in handling the affair, Benedict said he was saddened that he was criticized "with open hostility" even by those who should have known better.

Another moron blabbering their brainless "thoughts". Oh Lord, and it ain't in a religious way.

荒谬逻辑 Incongruous Logic

2009-03-17T13:09:00.002+08:00

"If homosexuality was the normal way, God would have made Adam and Bruce." ----- ANITA BRYANT

On the whole, going against homosexuality and or anything else for that matter base solely on one own religion is not worth refuting, because in a democratic society, one should not imposing one’s belief onto someone who is not a believer. Religion and politics should never be place together, or else if the Muslims say no one should consume pork, just because it says so in the al-Quran, be it if we are Muslims or otherwise can only keep mum and obey. Is that equitable? Would you comply?

But, denouncing the statement by Anita Bryant above is still a useful way to set an exemplary, for it will shed lights on how ridiculous and overbearing the logic of homophobias are.

It is overbearing, because it forcefully imposes its own faith and belief on to the public and the society; it is ridiculous, because the way it annotate the intrinsic logic of the Bible sink into a point of sheer preposterous.

If homosexuality is erroneous, because instead of “Adam and Bruce”, God created “Adam and Eve”; on the other hand, if God approved of homosexuality, He will create two men, namely “Adam and Bruce”. If this is the case, then incest should be valid, and by condemning homosexuality, we are promoting incest. Based on this logic, if incest is another booboo, God should have not only create “Adam and Eve”, He should create a set of “David and Mary” as well, so to enable the offspring of both family to mate. Since we all know God only created “Adam and Eve”, so the grandchildren of Adam and Eve are no doubt the offspring of the incestuous mating between the sons and daughters of Adam and Eve. It might have even went as far as Adam and Eve themselves form sexual relationships with their own children.

In accordance to Anita Bryant’s logic, since God never created two sets of family, with only one man and one woman created, and that all men and women came from this set of family, that proves incest is indeed approvable; because if God is against incest and label incest as an act of evil. He should have created at least two sets of couples. But, God never did that, therefore, Incest IS approvable. No?

So, how would you perceive of the conclusion? Will those who condemn homosexuality by the abovementioned logic ready to accept the conclusion inferred out of the logic itself, that is incest is indeed acceptable?

From that we can see how childish and unreasonable are those who use the creationism theory from the Bible to lambaste homosexuals. Sadly, these incongruous theories will never make sense to those who practices blind faith, homophobic and brainless. If you were to learn from me by explaining the whole absurdity with some citations as proofs, those who still has a shred of conscience and has a somewhat healthy mindset would still have a sense of remorse for the way they think, but mark my words, few will bow and apologize to homosexuals nor they will take back whatever homophobic expressions they lashed out.

By the way, Anita Bryant was a beauty pageant; pretty without a brain, coincidence? You be the judge.

Britney Spears -If You Seek Amy [Official Music Video]

2009-03-13T02:07:00.005+08:00

Aww My Friggin Damn!!! I was this close from dying of excitement!! (I know, shallow as i may sound, things like these does set me off) The video is HAWT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sizzling!!!!! Britney, you ROCK!!!!!!!! The sexy dance combine with a pack of hot bodies, it's Heaven on Earth!!!

Love the garb, and the shoe, Brit. I think the chiffon-y shoe are by Giuseppe Zanotti...not sure though.Love, love LOVE the video!!!!!! iF yoU SeeK Me!!!

Evaluation: A Process Which Consist of Butt Kissing to Survive

2009-03-13T00:16:00.005+08:00

So i've heard,
news regarding the Medical department of TCU failed (again, duh!) in the TMAC evaluation thingie. I'm not really sure how the evaluation process goes, but to me, all these are just some screw up fuckheads trying hard to...well, screw things up.

The department i'm in, the English Literature department, will be facing the evaluation horror in less than a semester, and already, the president of the department already caleed for a conference on how to "improve" our department so to smooch the jury's asses and to pass the damn test.

By now, even morons would have sense the obvious sarcastic tone in the previous paragraph. I mean, does all those measly stuff worth it? It seems this is the trend of Taiwanese learning instituitions; departments and professors just don't have the "self" in them, and would do anything to please the government to survive.

In order not to get kick out of the country, i'm gonna shut my trap now, but mark my words, i could go on and on. But, i'll focus on my departments effort on kissing the evaluation panel's asses.

We have a small, cute (oh what the hell, literally empty) library exclusively to our department. So, in vain effort to boost traffic, Dr. K, our department's president forced every professors of our department to make the students borrow at least 5 books and write an annotation bibliography on the book. Aside from that, students who spend 5 hours in the library will each receive a 1 point boost on their final average score. Unfair right? We'll talk about later.

Back to the bibliography thing. I mean, is it even necessary? Compiling a tomb of our bibliography collection which, to be frank, i don't think many sane students would do so, because they'd simply copy every single word from the back of the cover. So, do we actually learn from the whole thing at all? It'll be just another run off the mill burden piling up on other stuff that are already burning our butt.

On to the 5 hours for 1 point thing, how will it be fair for people who actually work hard but just doesn't have the time to crawl to the library? (Me!!!)

Ugh, i'm sick of the whole evaluation thing. Dr. K has been hounding me for the past few weeks to assist him on the preparation. Setting up an English Corner, a book club, and etcetera. Man, these things progress slowly. Just because you present something you whipped up in less than a month isn't gonna do our department any good. It's like, people would do absolutely anything in vain, no matter how superstitious they are just to please others.

A few stacks of "proof" consist of papers with stamps indicating credit hours students spend in the Library to show how devoted the students are? You have got to be fucking kidding me. And worst, bribe them with average points? Wow. I'm speechless.

Here's a quote on a blog post by JYsim, a friend from the medical department.
It's a question of fire for warmth and burning up the house really, but as students we care only about the quality of education we receive. Being pampered from the very beginning (TCU is not really a university in terms of lectures and teaching methods), class reaction was radical to say the least. Powerpoints flew past our eyes, 3 seconds per slide, while some others chose to skip slides - "you'll learn this soon enough," "this is not really relevant," etc.
The consequence - we flip through books so thick they need cutting in half for better transportation. And some stupid fellas like me, need more than one book to truly understand. The library's collection of textbooks had all gone into hideout, leaving the ancient editions (I got a 2nd edition; the latest print is 4th) behind.
On top of that, we are bound to preparations for the cremation and memorial service of our silent mentor this weekend. Of that we really did our best despite the limited time and immense academic pressure. I am glad to be of assistance to the class in their choir during the service, while the short stage show they put up was simple, touching and memorable.

Sad, really. I think i'm gonna check and see if there are any switching opportunities. Maybe to NTU? Nah, too ambitious...Maybe Dong Hua University? Uh...Probably not...or maybe i'll think about it. Gosh. If the butt kissing fail to work, well, i might as well kiss my degree sayonara.

What I Like About You

2009-03-12T23:28:00.002+08:00

Finally, i finished every single episode of What I Like About You after more than a year worth of downloading and waiting,

You know the feeling of how if you became a big fan of a certain tv show, and it grows on you so much that it'll make you cry if it ends? Well, never since Charmed that a show left me in such a state where tears stream down on the very last episode.

What I Like About You tells the story of Valerie "Val" Tyler and her younger sister, Holly Tyler. Val Tyler (Jennie Garth) is an uptight taskmaster who is very organized and somewhat neurotic. Holly (Amanda Bynes) is a rambunctious and narcissistic teenager who doesn't want to move to Japan where her father has a new job, arranging instead to move into her older sister Val's apartment in New York City. The show featured two strong sisters who love each other. They have equally loyal friends (Val's Lauren and Holly's Gary, or in later episodes Tina, for example).

I still remember a few lines that stuck on me. In the second last episode, Now and Zen, Lauren told Val that the reason she's so uptight and afraid of embracing happiness is that she always look for a flaw whenever there's happiness looming by.

That conversation got me thinking, really, i'm constantly uptight. I might never asked for any flaws or whatever to smack on my face, but i just couldn't help look for a way to be miserable about it. Sometimes, when things doesn't go my way, did i ever thought off digging the whole thing deeper to see if the Universe is trying to tell me something?

Like...like, ok. For example. Say you planned your dream wedding on a boat house, but, the bookings are full. It sucks, but suddenly, someone cancelled! Yay! right? But there's a catch to it. The person who cancelled had a Star Wars theme wedding all planned out and it's too late to change the whole thing unless you pay big bucks, so you either have to suck it up or leave it. So, do you suck it up, or you just simply bawl your heads out because you envisioned a "Starry" wedding instead of a "Satr Wars" wedding?

If you were to look deeper, maybe it's the Universe trying to tell you that, "Dude, suck it up, why do you have to go for the dark side everytime when you can just embrace the light?" Sure, cutting your wedding cake with a lightsaber and bridesmaid dressing as androids, and hell, you'll have to dress as the God-awful Princess Leia garb (ugh, that horrible bun hair style is a crime in every single galaxy), but look at the bright side, it's memorable. Right?

So, the past few days weren't that smooth for me, all with the sulking and misfortunes now and then, but i'm still alive, ain;t i? (Ok, it's not like i'm gonna die or anything, i'm just saying.) I still have friends who sing for me every night, (High five, Viecie, remember dude, Single Rawks!!!!) friends who listen to me blabbering on and on how miserable i am and drag me out for supper whenever i feel like shit.

Maybe i ain't as lucky as some people does, but i still have the moments.

Anyway, i'm glad i finished the show. Holly, Val, Gary. Tina, Vince, Lauren; you guys grew on me so much that i kinda felt like a part of your weird circle, no, maybe more than that, like family. I will definitely missed the show.

Could be the worst day of My Life

2009-03-11T20:38:00.004+08:00

I woke up early mornin',
feelin' like a big pile of mess,
headache, nausea, fever and cough hit me all at once.

Man,
and i just found out that i left my entire stationery case in the damn post office...
My precious Knox (well, that's the name i gave to my precious pencil which stood by me for more than a decade, through blood, sweat and tears....) lost along with every other pens and stuff in the case....

Just when i thought things could not be getting any worst,
i hit a car while on my way back from the central campus after finishing class.
Well, i didn't exactly hit the car,
but that moron open his door and i just went right at it because it was way too dark.

I'm fine though,
just a few scratches on my knee.

Argh!

Shoe Fetish

2009-03-11T02:04:00.003+08:00

Ok, first of all,
i am not a shoe fetish person, nor i am into wearing women's shoes..
i mean, eew.

Anyway, just because i don't have shoe fetish doesn't mean that i can't appreciate them as a form of art. I mean, take these Louis Vuitton Spicy Collection sandals for example, aren't they exquisite?

As seen on Louis Vuitton's Spring/Summer 2009 Show in Paris last October 5th 2008, the Spicy Sandal Collection offers a wide array of stilletos in rare and exotic leathers, tribal-inspired fringes, beads, sequins, gold-finish rivets and other rich embellishments which corresponds to the season's ethnic inspiration. These sexy 4.5-inch platform sandals comes in six different styles:

LEFT: Spicy Sandal in Red Python Leather. Made from luxurious python leather, this shoe features an ethnic-inspired mask formed from beads, sequins, fringes and gold-finish accessories. Has gold-finish Louis Vuitton lace tips,Monogram canvas insock that is padded for enhanced comfort, a faceted, multi-colored platform, and a leather sole. Available at Louis Vuitton for approximately $2217.

RIGHT: Spicy Sandal in Navy Suede Baby Goat Leather. Made from velvety suede, this shoe features beads, sequins, feathers and gold-finish accessories to form the striking tribal impression. Has gold-finish Louis Vuitton lace tips,Monogram canvas insock that is padded for enhanced comfort, a two-tone platform, and a leather sole. Available at Louis Vuitton for approximately $2289.

LEFT: Spicy Sandal in Pony Styled Calf Leather. Made from pony-styled calf leather with the famous Stephen Sprouse leopard print, this sexy stilleto features beads, feathers, rivets and gold-coloured laces, gold stitching, gold-finish Louis Vuitton lace tips, Monogram canvas insock that is padded for enhanced comfort, a two-tone platform and a leather sole. Available at Louis Vuitton for approximately $1569.

RIGHT: Spicy Sandal in Python Leather. This sexily laced stiletto sandals in exotic python leather features ethnic-inspired fringes, beads, sequins and gold-finish rivets, gold-finish Louis Vuitton lace tips, Monogram canvas insock that is padded for enhanced comfort, a two-tone platform and a leather sole. Available at Louis Vuitton for approximately $2778.

LEFT: Spicy Sandal in Burgundy Suede Baby Goat Leather. This shoe is made from velvety suede baby goat leather which features geometric beads and gold-finish accessories, gold-finish Louis Vuitton lace tips, Monogram canvas insock that is padded for enhanced comfort a faceted multi-coloured platform and a sturdy leather sole. Available at Louis Vuitton for approximately $1785.

RIGHT: Spicy Sandal in Patent Calf Leather. This sexy sandal made from black patent calf leather features beads, feathers, rivets and gold-coloured laces, gold-finish Louis Vuitton lace tips, Monogram canvas insock, padded for enhanced comfort, two-tone platform and a leather sole. Available at Louis Vuitton for approximately $1540.

image via Louis Vuitton

Thoughts on Life

2009-03-10T23:59:00.002+08:00

"Do you understand the rest of your life is being shaped right now? It's up to you, you can walk out that door and fail this class and take your chances, or you could sit down, listen, and learn from somebody that's been there. Choice is yours. The rest of your life is a long time and whether you know it or not, it's being shaped right now. You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate, or bad luck, or bad choices, or you can fight back. Things aren't always gonna be fair in the real world, that's just the way it is. But for the most part you get what you give. Let me ask you all a question; what's worse, not getting everything you wished for or getting it all and finding out it's not enough. The rest of your life is being shaped right now with the dreams you chase, the choices you make, and the person you decide to be. The rest of your life is a long time and the rest of your life starts right now."

After finishing a re-run episode of One Tree Hill, one quote uttered by Haley stuck on me.
I am always the guy who just sits around sulking at my poor fate, but, come to think of it,
did i ever put in enough effort on changing my circumstances?

I know, one part of me might be arguing that i gave up medicine to pursue what i love proves i do realize i have to chase my own life, but, i never really knows how to shape it right, and there are times i just felt like things and circumstances are as bad as how it was.

Why do i always wave the white flag whenever i felt defeated? Was i ever being defeated? Or it is my own self that defeat myself? I told myself long ago, that i want to be this this and this, but now i felt that i'm doing things backwards, and i never fight back, not even a hint of struggling when i received blows.

I want to be someone, and not just someone someone, but SOMEONE, to prove to the world that i ain't scared of living. I need to shape things in the right mold, i want to live!

Science & Religion

2009-03-10T13:13:00.001+08:00

Please bear in mind that the word "God" in the following text does not refer to any particular God but it only serves as a general context. So please don't assume I am talking about any particular religion. Thank you.

1) If God really exists, where was He when tsunami strikes those innocent people who lost their lives on that day while those who survived lost their homes, children lost their parents or parents lost their children?

2) Scientists and those who believe in Science (e.g. doctors) will only believe things which are based on facts. And they will only believe at something after many trials, experiments and thorough analysis. Do you think scientists will believe the existence of God? Scientists need proof, facts, solid results and not just words and mere explanation from other people.

3) Why are there so many different schools of teaching even in one religion, let's say Christianity, you have the Prostestant, Catholic, etc. If they are all believing in the same thing, why can't they get along together?

Below is an excerpt from the book Change of Heart by Jodi Picoult, my favourite author. I have ALL her books.

Shay: But...Son of God? Where's the proof?

Father Michael: That's what faith is. Believing without seeing.

Shay: Someone wrote the Bible, and it wasn't God. And he must have made decisions about what went in and what didn't. It's like when you write a letter, and you put in all the stuff you did during vacation but you leave out the part where your wallet got stolen and you got food poisoning.

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And it makes me think after reading this book that how accurate are the words in the Bible anyway when it's not even written by God himself. Or you just believe it without questioning it?

Some say God creates human beings with the ability for them to think themselves without being a robot. So it means, God is giving us the freedom to think of what religion or faith we want to believe in, right? Then why are some people condemning on others who do not believe in what they believe? I have a friend who is a Buddhist but her boyfriend is a Christian so she follows him to the church (I don't know which type of school it is) one day and at the sermon, she heard the father condemning other religions. She stops going. Who gives him the right to talk bad about other religions? I thought religion should teach us to respect each other.

We are free to think. We are free to choose. So be it.

(by Calvin)

Channeling My Energy

2009-03-10T01:41:00.003+08:00

What was wrong with me?
Man, i swore to myself when i decided to crawl out of AIMST
and come to Taiwan that i will channel my energy in sulking over nothing
on something useful and proactive instead of suppressing the energy
by swallowing prescribed Prozac or anti-depressant.

Shame on myself for breaking my own promise.
Anyway,
mood swing like these seems to swagger by every now and then,
just depends on the magnitude.

Anyway, after crossing off two things from my tight schedule,
i've decided to write the script for the drama performance of the English Department week
Drama Performance night.
Now i feel pumped! Man,
i forgot how the rush of adrenaline came over me like waves of orgasm
whenever i write.

Apology Notice:

Dear You-Know-Who-You-Are,
i'd like to apologize for my outrageous behavior.
I was way over the line for acting out on you.
Therefore,
if you happen to read this,
I am so so sorry.
Hope there'll be no hard feelings.
And, i will leave you alone,
but i do hope we could still be friends.

Giving Up

2009-03-09T23:52:00.002+08:00

So here's how things goes.
I've decided to lighten my burden by giving up on 2 things.

1. The stupid Xiamen University Interpretation Competition
Reason: If i represent the God-forsaken country, fund a few pennies on me wouldn't bust their bank! Why should i spend a few gazillion on air fare, accommodation and such measly thing using my own greens just so i can paste a smug on the damn country? And, come to think of it, if i miss my mid terms, my scholarship will definitely go poof.

2. The Singing competition this Friday.
Reason: After doodling with the pain in the ass guitar and tryin in vain to push my voice to match the pitch of Nicole Scherzinger, i came to a harsh conclusion that i don't have the pipes to sing PCD's I Hate This Part, even though i tried toning the keys to a few notes lower. And besides, the damn guitar chords are so tight they kept cutting my fingers.

Man, i kinda felt relief.

I know they're once in an eon of an opportunity,
but do they worth my heart and soul pouring in?
Sometimes, it's wiser to let things go.
Giving up doesn't mean that i'm weak,
sometimes, having the will to give up is actually a sign of a strong me.
(*smug* who knew the alter ego me is so good at this?)

Man, stupid Wyatt.
You should have learnt your lesson 3 years ago.
LOL!

Guess i broke my resolutions of
DO NOT SAY YES TO EVERYTHING.
I have to learn how to manage my schedule,
and packing every single free slots with stuff to do is not a wise thing to do.

Cold

2009-03-09T18:06:00.003+08:00

It's been kinda cold today,
but somehow,
i just felt numb all over.

I was going to cry when i saw Ruby cried when she was about to leave,
but somehow,
no tears come out,
i guess my eyes are so sore and blotchy from drunk crying so much
(yeah, i cry when i'm drunk),
i just went...numb.

It doesn't matter anymore.
I've come to learn how to get over these things.

Miley Cyrus - The Climb [Music Video]

2009-03-09T10:18:00.002+08:00

Brand new single by Miley Cyrus,
the song will be feature in the upcoming Hannah Montana Movie.

Am i a freak?

2009-03-09T01:08:00.003+08:00

I puke watching the lovey-dovey scene between Edward and Bella
in Twilight.
As if that'll happen in real life?

What the hell is so wrong with me
that makes people go away?

I don't look good?
I don't have a face of a model?
I don't have a sharp dress sense?
I don't have a killer body?

I tried to make up by being

good at everything else
a good person
a thoughtful person
a humble person
a nice person.

Am i not good enough?
Am i a freak to you?
不是你的菜?
菜?!

Whoever said people only care about what's inside you
instead of your physical appearance,
can FUCK THEMSELVES SENSELESS.

It's a pure myth.

Guess being a good person will only
cause you to being hurt and crush badly eventually.

Paper Cut

2009-03-08T23:28:00.002+08:00

I picked up the guitar,
was gonna jam a lil',

"I Hate This Part"

Damn the strings,
cut my finger.

Now I feel like a piece of mess.

Now i really have the urge to smash the damn guitar into smithereens...
Just like my heart.

By the way,
Amy (杜玟萱), June (廖珮君), Ruby (劉盈孜), Roy (游晧勛), Jacque (陳薇冰) and Sophia (王瑞琪)
Thank you guys for being there for me.
At least i know,
that i still have a couple of hands to pat on my shoulder..
I love you guys.

The First Cut Is The Deepest

2009-03-08T20:58:00.002+08:00

Like i said,

I fully understand.

Guess i'd have to compromise,
though the whole picture is still abstract.

I am
still, confused.

Where did the definite and probable went to?
I don't know.

Haven't felt like this ever since H gave me up.
The feeling is still as painful as it ever was.

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And it doesn't help that the SKANK lambaste me
again, on her blog.

Guess working my ass off for the function ain't enough for her.

Whatever.
I ain't gonna bite back.
I give up.

Yes

2009-03-08T19:18:00.000+08:00

I

Understand.

Thank You.

Lady GaGa - Poker Face [Live @ The Dome]

2009-03-08T14:56:00.001+08:00

Lady Gaga performing her hit single, Poker Face at The Dome, Germany.
She is so freakin damn hot!!!
Sizzle!

Slow down a lil'

2009-03-08T02:43:00.002+08:00

While going out for a much needed fresh air
by the river bank,
suddenly, i came to a realization that
i just simply could not slow down my
footsteps.

I'm taking my life way too fast that i
totally forgot on how to walk breezily
like a normal human being.

I did try,
but the steps kept getting
all awkward.

I need to slow things down,
even if it's only a tad bit...

Am i escaping from something...?
Loneliness? Fear? Life?

Confession

2009-03-08T02:36:00.002+08:00

To: Z

I am confused.

I don't know why.

I have a confession to make.
Your presence
impacted me so great,
that i need to confess something.

I sincerely hope that,
if it's not gonna happen for whatever reasons,
i need to know.

Please,
talk to me when you see this.

You know who you are..

Wyatt

Wretched

2009-03-07T16:23:00.002+08:00

You know how sad it is being me?
Is that,
i couldn't get anyone to go to the theater with me at all.

I am so fucking pathetic.

Somehow, the drizzle and the cold winds out there
which used to be my fave
doesn't help this time.

They just make every single thing worst.

Someone to talk to and a movie together,
is like wishing for the sky to rain gold.

Yeah,
i know.
My Life.

I think my depression problem is creeping back in again.
Shit. I shouldn't have left my anti-depressant and Prozac back at home,
just because i,
idiot as always,
thought i could handle my emotions now.

Rascal Flatts - Here Comes Goodbye

2009-03-07T15:28:00.001+08:00

Hush Hush

2009-03-07T14:28:00.002+08:00

Ha~

Happily Never After for me.

Well...

I Hate This Part blared non-stop
since i drowned myself in vodka,
carrying on like nothing's wrong?

All i see is sunset.

Everything is slipping through my finger.
Why?

Porque?

Why?

Is explanation for a closure so hard?

Note To Self: Hush, my dear. Its just how life is. It's a mere beautiful disaster.

What'd I do to deserve all this?

2009-03-07T01:40:00.002+08:00

I just don't understand...

What did i ever do to deserve all this?

Tears...
Why do they kept rolling?
Maybe it's the half bottle of Absolut
which i drowned.

I just...

wanna cry,
to celebrate what could be the worst day of my miserable life.

Rise to Fall Harder

2009-03-06T15:24:00.003+08:00

Idiocy aside,
i guess me being naive is something that will never change.

I might not know what happen,
but,
for what it's worth,
i wouldn't trade it for anything else.

I've had my time,
you know, the exhilarating feeling of riding
a roller coaster,
or a 50 bucks McFlurry,
sure you get your money's worth,
but wouldn't you just wished it'd
last a bit longer?

I've had my share.

Maybe i should've let the flicker of hope
within me die long ago...

Uh..

2009-03-06T13:11:00.001+08:00

What?

huh?

Guess it was a one way street.

Wyatt's idiocy.
Story of my life.

Britney Spears - The Circus Tour preview

2009-03-05T13:13:00.002+08:00

Seriously, Britney looks freaking hot!!! Sad i'm not in the US or i might catch a few shows...Anyway, congratulations to Britney on finally making a comeback we fans have been waiting for a long time!! All hail the Queen of Pop!!

Wedding of Hope

2009-03-05T01:04:00.000+08:00

Terminally ill 9-year-old Jayla Cooper recieved quite the heart-warming surprise on Sunday afternoon.

Cooper, who is stricken with leukemia and has only weeks to live, had her last wish granted - to marry her friend, 7-year-old friend, Jose Griggs, who also is struggling with leukemia.

The two friends chose their first dance to be to the Jonas Brothers' Love Bug, and word traveled fast. The JoBros decided to surprised Jayla at her home on Sunday by serenading the ailing girl in her living room to Love Bug.

Aww!!

Lida and Melina & Bunifa [of MadTv]

2009-03-04T14:05:00.000+08:00

These videos are so funny they will make you pee. LOL!

~Never Have I Fallen~

2009-03-04T02:15:00.000+08:00

Your lips speak soft sweetness
Your touch a cool caress
I am lost in your magic
My heart beats within your chest

I think of you each morning
And dream of you each night
I think of your arms being around me
And cannot express my delight

Never have I fallen
But I am quickly on my way
You hold a heart in your hands
That has never before been given away~

15 year old girl brutally beat by cops Seattle, Washington Police overstepped again

2009-03-03T01:22:00.001+08:00

A 15 year old girl was beaten senseless by cops in Seattle...Man, this is intense...No one deserves beating like that, not even those who call you a "fat pig"...

Delete

2009-03-02T22:54:00.003+08:00

Finally,
i deleted his picture.

Clap, clap, clap!!!!!!
Applause!!!!

Maybe,
i finally found the motivation for me to do so.

Definitely,
Maybe.

Change + Frisson

2009-03-02T12:42:00.003+08:00

I guess thing will never be the way it seems for long.
I wish so hard that this time it will be different,
but i guess i was wrong.

Change or no change,
there's still the bits of pieces there where
change will only mean a turn for the worst.

Congratulations,
for earning the title
at the ceremony last Friday.
You guys deserves it,
but i don't think i'm in no way any part of the victory.
In no way i want to associate with a place where
pretentious, backstabbers, fakers are the three main species
inhabiting on.

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3 years ago,
around the same time,
i met him,
i thought,
we were meant to be together,
that i found the special one in my heart.

Ah,
the old naive Wyatt...
I guess, it ain't easy...

They say the winter season won't last long,
and Spring will come eventually,
well, guess what?
My very own Winter lasted for 3 whole years.
Will spring finally come this time around?

Maybe.
I could just hope for the best.

Oh,
does the butterflies fluttering in my stomach counts
as a sign?
Butterflies are a sign of Spring,
so, we'll see...

Oh, do you know,
Butterfly is actually Flutterby?
I don't know how true that is,
but,
it put a smile on your face didn't it?