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Friday, August 28, 2009

Wednesday, August 19, 2009


I got to admit,
besides Facebook, i have a couple of
personals accounts scattered all over the internet,
ranging from sites such as twitter, friendster,
and the Gay Dating site: Fridae.

Initially, joined the site for only one purpose,
to read the articles pen by one of my favourite author
Mr. O-Young Wen Feng.
But, i kinda roam around the site,
and what do you know, i made some friends there.

Ok, if you really know the real Wyatt,
you'd know that he NEVER (ok, sometimes) compliment
on something on his blog.
I love that site, sure, whats with all the nice people
i got to know there,
but what irks me is that, does everyone HAVE to
post partial nude pictures showing off their muscles or whatever?
Worst, some even post pictures of...*GASP* their
lower body clad in underwear.

Um...ok, i know what you guys thinking
and this issue of me on the nude pics weren't sparked
by jealousy (ok, maybe a little, but i'm proud of my brain, not a empty shell
on a mannequin-perfect body),
but it's kinda offensive, not in the sense of them clad in almost nothing,
but offensive to me, and maybe some people out there
(though i wouldn't really count on that)
who are not shallow, judgemental or anything.
I mean, i don't send message to a person based solely on how
hunky they are, and i ain't looking for
mindless sex, but i got to say, most are.

Thankfully, i've had my share of nice people
whom i enjoy conversing with.

Story of my life,
being gay requires you to put muscles on your body,
just so you'd get people's attention.
And all those stupid gay prides claim that they are promoting
gay rights, with sissy guys clad in speedos and underwears hoarding the streets,
while i, the nerd and outcast in the gay world being treated
as no more than a plank on the street.
Is that really the image you wanna convey to the already
wary-of-gay public??


Tuesday, August 18, 2009


Ok, so i've been up to literally nothing lately,
boring boring boring.

Aside from finishing the entire Twilight Saga, including the
online only Midnight Sun, i've started on my book.
Ok, when i say started, i mean i'm writing one.

I still vaguely remember the manuscript i had a few years ago,
finished like 50 pages and kinda lost it.
Sigh...they say shattered dreams.
I'd say my muse bailed on me.
Dang it, what the heck am i muttering here.

So, ok, i've been working on it on and off,
and might pitch it to my professors and some editors,
but i guess chances of it getting publish is...well,
one could only hope.

Besides reading thrashy teen novels,
and writing my book (on and off),
facebook, fridae, gmail and that oh so addictive guilty pleasure
Gossip Girl make up most of my 12 hours here in my
parents' BORING office.

Man, can't wait to get back to school.
Weird, never thought i'd missed school,
throw me back a few years and i will think i lost my mind.


That's about it i guess.
You know you love me,

[I'm being vain, naive and delusional here, probably i'm the only person to read this piece of crap.]

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

On Cloud Nine

I've made up my mind to blabber on this platform once a fortnight from now on.
Anyway, i've been on cloud nine lately.

Met this really wonderful angel.
Who knew, there are pure, genuine, sincere people out there!

By the way, my heart goes out to those who lost their lives,
love ones, home, or anything for that matter, in the flash flood
in the southern part of Taiwan.
I love Taiwanese, they're the strongest people i've come to know.
I'm sure they'll get back on their feet in no time.

God Bless~

Monday, August 03, 2009

Homphobic Violence

This is sad. LGBT deserves the right to live. We never taunt those religious and ultra conservative people, but why do they always lashes us with hate and violence? Did God teach them to hate and kill? What kind of God/Religion is that?

TEL AVIV (Reuters) - A gunman sprayed automatic fire at an Israeli club for gay teenagers on Saturday, killing two people and wounding at least eight, police and witnesses said.

The shooting spree in central Tel Aviv set off a citywide security clampdown, reviving memories of Palestinian attacks that have ebbed in recent years. But a police spokesman said that the incident was "criminal, rather than nationalistic."

Citing witnesses, Israeli television said a black-clad, masked gunman stormed into the Tel Aviv Gay and Lesbian Association building and opened fire in a basement room where teenage homosexuals were holding a weekly support group.

Most of the casualties were minors, the police spokesman said, adding that the assailant was believed to have used an automatic weapon such as an M-16 rifle.

"This is an unprecedented event for Israel and for the community," association director May Pamel told Channel 10 TV.

"We have joined the roster of 'civilized' countries where hatred is the standard."

Coastal, cosmopolitan Tel Aviv has a bustling gay scene, but open homosexuality is less welcome in conservative areas of the Jewish state. Annual gay pride parades in Jerusalem meet with often violent protests from ultra-Orthodox Jews.

Tel Aviv police chief Shachar Ayalon stopped short of branding the shooting a hate crime remarks to reporters.

But one protester at the scene held up a placard blaming a powerful religious Jewish political party whose members have regularly inveighed against gays.

Israeli media said police had warned other gay clubs in Tel Aviv to close for fear of a follow-up attack.

(Writing by Dan Williams; Editing by Michael Roddy)

Thursday, July 30, 2009


Hmm...It's been like, what? A month since i last made any posting here.
Guess there's just not enough motivation for me to actually post anything.
Anyway, enough of my blabbering, to you who stop by every now and then,
please leave a message just so i know that people are still reading my blog.
Sounds vain? LOL! See it as a plea, por favor~


Ever since the Beng Hock incident, it seems every major who(s) in the political scene jump to the
"Justice for Beng Hock" bandwagon. Interesting.

Although i pity the deceased, and truly am horrified like the rest of Malaysia regarding the conspiracies strung in the country, i just couldn't shake off the feeling that the whos and whos in the political scene who are busy putting up banners and coming out with embarrassing antics
like screaming profanities on the street are doing that just so they could earn a vote or two
from sympathetics over the country. Politics, no one's really on the good/light side.

All in all, my late sympathy to the family and friends of Yap Beng Hock. RIP~


Beloved Malay director Yasmin Ahmad passed away a few days ago.
Sad. She's one of the rare Malaysian director which i admire, both her as a public figure who fight hard in the unity of Malaysian and her work, portraying the harmonious Malaysia albeit races and religions.

Once again, RIP~


It seems June and July mark the passing of many great public figures. Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett are two others who sadly left the world for a better place. A lot of people might
snort at the freakishness of Michael Jackson these past few years, but i never look pass him as more than a great philanthropist who support world peace in songs like Heal The World.

Although i was never really a fan of his, but i do felt sorry for him, living under constant scrutiny of the public eyes. May he rest in peace now.


For the past 6 days, i took part in the Taiwanese Higher Education Fair held in both Hotel Istana, Kuala Lumpur and Kluang, Johor.

Part 1: Kuala Lumpur

I never really like going to the capital city of Malaysia, for it's a filthy city filled with foul smell and horrible, messy streets which are constantly overcrowded.

I mean, Malaysia, come on, do ya'll know how misleading the overplayed "Malaysia Truly Asia" ad is? The moment you step down of the Puduraya Bus Station, a pungent smell (a blend of piss, smoke, cigarettes, dust and whatever the heck is) hits the nose. Then there's Bintang Walk, one of the most crowded shopping district in KL, filthy streets, trash littering along the roadside, people offering massage, selling fake Vuitton, Gucci, and Rolex, which is a disgrace to the image of a metropolitan city. Then, the worst thing is, even the fountain well behind Suria KLCC, (which held the title as the second tallest building in the world), is overflown with rubbish and probably spit (i walked by some dude who just "ptui!" a wad of spit into the pool of water). What does that say about Malaysia? Instead of splurging gazillion Ringgit in putting up fake ads, why not use the money to elevate the physical image of the country's capital?

Look at Taipei 101, man, Taipei might be crowded as well, but for some reason, it's tidier and way better in terms of cleanliness.

Leaders of Malaysia, please stop babbling ridiculous political crap and freshen up the icky city.

Part 2: Kluang, Johor

Nothing much to say about this quiet little city.
Although surprisingly, i met plenty of great people throughout the 2 day event whom are surely growing as life-long friends.

And, one thing that surprises me is that, the one person that i loathe in the past ended up as a great person, 2 days worth of time together sure changes my perspectives a lot.


Anyway, that's all for now.
Ooo...btw, shout out to F.O.S (Factory Outlet Store),
found out that they carry my faves labels!
GAP, Old Navy, Banana Republic, DSquared2, Nautica, Dockers, Juicy Couture etc.. for a price that made me cried Hallelujah!!!


No offense intended.

Friday, July 03, 2009

Fort Worth Police Chief: That Faggot Had It Coming

It's been like a month since my last post, and i doubt that anyone would even care. Anyway, here's a piece of news that makes my tummy churns more than the sight of a graffiti which spells "Love is for Heterosexuals" in a filthy street of Kuala Lumpur last night after i came back for my summer break from school.

Most residents of Fort Worth have never even seen the inside of a gay bar. Fort Worth's police chief Jeff Halstead is counting on that fact—counting on the average person's ignorance about gay bars and certain stereotypes about gay men—to get a half a dozen Forth Worth police officers off the hook for conducting a violent raid on a Forth Worth gay bar, the Rainbow Lounge, late last Saturday night. Seven men were arrested during the raid, which took place on the 40th anniversary of the raid on the Stonewall Inn that kick-started the modern gay rights movement, and one of those men—Chad Gibson—remains in intensive care with a brain injury. Gibson may not survive.

The officers who raided the Rainbow Lounge claim that the men in the bar made "advances" on them—and Forth Worth's police chief is backing them up:

Monday, police chief Jeff Halstead said the officers' actions are being investigated. However, he also said that officers that entered the bar during the scheduled inspection were touched inappropriately.

"You're touched and advanced in certain ways by people inside the bar, that's offensive," he said. "I'm happy with the restraint used when they were contacted like that."

Allow me to translate the chief's comments: "Them faggots in that thar bar touched mah officers and now they're complainin' about some rough stuff and one little ol' faggot with a brain injury? Those perverts should be grateful they're alive."

This is a classic example of the Gay Panic Defense. In the very recent past all a straight man who brutally murdered a gay man had to say was, "He made a pass at me!", and the jury would ignore the evidence and let the murderer off. The Gay Panic Defense doesn't fly in many courts of law these days but it still has currency in the court of public opinion. And the chief of police in Forth Worth, a major U.S. city, is attempting to use the Gay Panic Defense to convince the citizens of Fort Worth to ignore the evidence—to ignore photographic evidence and credible eyewitness accounts—and let his officers off.

And you'll never guess who the police are accusing of being the groper: Chad Gibson, the one man arrested at the Rainbow Lounge who can't defend himself and may never be able to give his side of the story. But another person at the bar witnessed Gibson's arrest:

"They were hyped up. They were loaded for bear," said Todd Camp, a veteran journalist who was there celebrating his birthday with friends. "They were just randomly grabbing people, telling them they were drunk."

Camp told me he has been in bars during TABC/police "checks" before, "and it was never anything like this." Usually, he said, officers discreetly walk through, looking for anybody who has had too much. This was different. "They were shoving patrons," Camp said, "asking, 'How much have you had to drink?'"


"[Gibson] was taken down hard," said Camp, with "four or five" officers wrestling him to the floor inside the club. Cellphone photos shot by patrons and posted to blogs show a person being held facedown by officers in a short hallway inside the club, then show a dent in the wall where his head was apparently banged.

The police claim that Gibson wasn't injured when those four or five cops slammed him to the floor of the bar, but after his arrest, when, drunk and handcuffed, Gibson somehow fell and hit his head on the pavement outside the bar.

All of this is bullshit.

I've been in a million gay bars. I've been in gay bars on multiple occasions when the police came in to check everyone's IDs and make sure no minors were being served. Gay men don't grope police officers when they enter gay bars. I find it inconceivable that the gay men drinking in the Rainbow Lounge in Fort Worth responded to a raid by attempting to grope the police officers. This "they groped us!" shit is a lie. As the owner of the bar, J.R. Schrock, put it at the protest the night after the raid:

"The groping of the police officer—really? We're gay, but we're not dumb," Schrock said to the crowd that gathered at the bar Sunday afternoon. "That is a lie, and I am appalled by it."

Jeff Halstead can't be allowed to use the Gay Panic Defense. His officers weren't groped, no one was "touched and advanced." Homophobic cops raided a gay bar, roughed up the patrons, and a young man is in the hospital and may die.

Some will say that this was just an ill-timed raid on a gay bar in Texas, of all places, one that got out of control. So what's the big deal? But this is exactly the kind of state-sponsored violence that gays and lesbians fought back against at Stonewall 40 years ago. Gay men all over the country are going to have to speak up and defend the patrons of the Rainbow Lounge. We can't allow the chief of police in Fort Worth to use the Gay Panic Defense or exploit stereotypes about gay men—so sexually reckless that they can't even keep their hands off cops during a raid!—to get away with violating the civil rights of gay men in Fort Worth or murdering Chad Gibson.

UPDATE: More on Chad Gibson's condition:

ac33/1246404201-gibson.jpgChad Gibson, the 26-year-old Fort Worth resident who wound up in John Peter Smith Hospital in the intensive care unit after a law enforcement raid on a gay bar over the weekend, remains in danger with a blood clot on his brain. Dallas Voice senior editor Tammye Nash reports on the newspaper's blog, Instant Tea, that Gibson's sister, Kristy Morgan, told her a CAT scan had revealed the blood clot has quit growing, but it is still considered a life-threatening situation. Until the clot dissolves, there is a danger that the clot could break off and cause severe brain damage or death. A rupture of the clot could also start bleeding again.

The blood clot could take from six months to two years to dissolve, according to the update. Gibson, shown in a picture from, will likely remain in the hospital for the rest of the week and will be referred to a neurosurgeon for follow-up treatment. Surgery is reportedly not being considered at this time.

Discussion is under way about the establishment of a medical fund to assist Gibson. His hospital bill will undoubtedly be enormous, and it is unlikely that he will ever recover any of those medical expenses from the City of Fort Worth. Police officers and other government employees are protected by state law from liability in any legal action that arises in connection with the performance of their official duties, unless they are involved in misconduct or broke laws.

UPDATE 2: Someone needs to put this follow-up question to Fort Worth's police chief:

If Chad Gibson—the 160-pound, 26-year-old gay man that it took five of your officers to subdue—groped one of your officers, and if it was Gibson's lewd action that caused your officers to go absolutely apeshit, then surely Gibson—who is in an intensive care unit and may not survive his injuries—was charged with assault, right?


Officers then went to the Rainbow Lounge, which had opened about a week ago. They encountered two drunk people who made "sexually explicit movements" toward officers and another who grabbed a TABC agent's groin, according to the police report.

No one was arrested for assault but about half a dozen people were arrested on charges of public intoxication, according to police records. Police Chief Jeff Halstead said Gibson was the patron who grabbed at the agent's groin.

So... Chad Gibson sexually assaulted a Fort Worth police officer and, according to the Fort Worth's chief of police, Gibson's assault not only prompted but justified the actions of his officers at the Rainbow Room, but... Gibson wasn't charged with assault.

Can someone please ask the chief of police to explain how that works?

UPDATE 3: Via Slog commenter jasonzenobia: The Fort Worth Police Department's email address is and the number for FWPD's internal affairs office is 817.392.4270. That's the number to call to report officer misconduct. Joel Burns is the openly gay member of the Fort Worth city council and he's been all over this. You can reach him at his email is

UPDATE 4: I've heard from folks in Fort Worth that Joel Burns' office is being slammed with furious phone calls and emails about the raid on the Rainbow Lounge and the assault on Chad Gibson. Burns, however, has taken action on this and has called for an investigation and is doing everything an openly-gay elected official is supposed to do in a circumstance like this. If you're itching to send an outraged emails, Sloggers, I'd urge you to send emails to the six Fort Worth councilmembers who haven't joined with Burns and two of his colleagues in calling for a full and independent investigation into the appalling raid on the Rainbow Lounge.

Councilmember W.B. "Zim" Zimmerman
Councilmember Danny Scarth
Councilmember Frank Moss
Councilmember Jungus Jordan
Councilmember Carter Burdette

And send an email to the mayor, Mike Moncreif, who has yet to make a statement:

Mayor Mike Moncrief

Tell them the whole country is shocked and outraged and that you're appalled by their failure to join their colleagues Joel Burns, Sal Espino, and Kathleen Hicks in calling for an investigation into the raid on the Rainbow Lounge and the assault on Chad Gibson.

Saturday, June 06, 2009

Princess Venetian - Outer Space

This is a parody of Lady GaGa's Poker Face. Damn video gave me a few LOLs in the midst of my painstaking finals prep. LOL!