Ferras - Hollywood is not America

Great song by newcomer Ferras.
The song was featured in this season American Idol as the contestant exit song.

Paula Abdul - Dance Like There's No Tomorrow (Video)

Cool video, latest single by American Idol judge, Paula Abdul.
Kinda like a throwback to the 80s' disco era. Hahaha...

Racist, insulting.

This is insulting. Clearly these people are making a real ass out of Asians, particularly Chinese.
Look at the "no offense" under the header, sheesh, what do they think we are, stupid?
And do they think all Asians have slit like slanty eyes?
Gosh, some westerners are real ass.

(found this on a blog while googling)

Sucks!

It sucks being me.
Sigh...

4 more days till i get back to school.
Somehow, despite doing great last semester,
both academically and everyday life,
but due to the ongoing spat between my roomies and
that we have to run 10km, attend a weekly PE lesson,
back to school sounds tedious to me.

Guess i have to drag myself back anyhow dreadful it is.

Lately, i've had more mood swings than the past year,
and i have zero idea on why.
Sigh...

Depression

After my conversation via msn with a couple of close friends and friends i came to know lately,
i fell into a depression that i was trying hard to suppressed.

I don't really know what i feel, or why is it that i have this painful pangs of sharp stabbing sensation on my heart. I tried to be positive, but does it work out for me at all? No.

Sometimes, how i wish there is this person, i'm not greedy, i only ask for one, and only one,
to understand me, i have my feelings, i ain't a robot who could simply force a smile and crack jokes all the time as if nothing affects me.

I longed for acceptance, i longed for understanding, longed for love, long for someone who i could spill everything to.

I'm trying not to show any signs of being depress, and i certainly don't want to get haul to some crazy ward and prescribe with pills and a stupid bone headed doctor asking me a bunch of stupid questions.

And why do i bother to skip ropes 500 times, run 3miles, 30 push ups everyday?
Why? Yeah, i wish i was fitter, so others will take notice of me, why do i even bother?
Yeah, i'm a vegan, but i really wish i could have a bunch of fried chicken to stuff into my tummy now.

Updates on my P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C life

Here are some updates on my boring, uninteresting life...and some thoughts or whatever.

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Although this is like the first time in years my mom's side of the family (my uncle and aunts and their bratty, annoying kids) visit us, i wasn't that thrilled at all. I don't know, maybe it's because they're a bunch of back stabbing, loud, bone head gamblers who raid my fridge like no tomorrow. (they finished up just about the very last bit of food in our fridge, including my alfafa sprouts and my carton of yogurt)

Chinese New Years of late has been...boring and like Simon Cowell said, i don't feel anything, like there's no festivity mood around. I still remember as kids, back when i was a "kampung" (country) boy, we'd attempt killing ourselves with all sorts of firecrackers, and we even figure out different ways to get the firecrackers to blow. Lately, after moving into a more...urban part of the town, no one seems to care much, the streets emptied right after dawn, no cheers, no laughter, and only some distance firecrackers sound every now and then, but will quite down after midnight.

Sure, the tv advertisements had been really interesting and funny, but i just...don't feel it. It's like, the sole purpose of celebrating is to eat till your belly puff up and butt the size of a planet

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Speaking about CNY tv ads, here's one that brought me to tears.


It's one of the most meaningful ads i've ever since. I mean, it doesn't exploit all the red colors, the dragon dance and stuff, but it reflects another side of the community, while we were busy drinking our way to dead, some were alone, without anyone. Love the people around you.

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Another sad, empty valentine...sigh.....
It's been like 3 years since i've been in a relationship, well, guess i'm just not up to what others want, i ain't CUTE, guess i have to stress that, since every one of them expect his/her partners to be cute and hot.

Well, what can i say, we live in a world where photoshop pictures/botox/cosmetic surgeries/make ups/cute hot people rules. I'm the rejected goods, it's time i face the reality, i'll stop lying to myself that i ain't that bad, and that people do appreciate me of my intelligence, not solely on my looks.

God loves Ugly? Jordin Sparks, go google it up first before you make that statement.


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Well, thank God the stupid WGA (Writers Guild of America) strike was over 2 days ago. Sheesh, now look at what they did, Pushing Daisies and Heroes won't be back till next fall, and the other shows have only a handful left to air. Stupid strike.





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Malaysia's government was dissolves yesterday. My dad's busy with his phone, babbling on Politics. Sigh...the election won't make any change towards the country, all the issues presently will still, and always will be there, those politicians, what do they do except killing each others with words, fighting on and on endlessly like a bunch of morons.

Believe me, after all the huff and puff on the election, they'll disappear faster than you can spell ELECTION. That Lim Kit Siang and all the UMNO people or whoever they are, where are you people when justice needed to be serve or help needed from the people they govern? All they do is arguing, and hiding.

Stupid government.

And, who cares about the election on the coming 8th March? I'm more excited with news like Celine Dion's Malaysia concert.
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That's about all for now.
Until next time, which is...don't ask me when.

Happy Chinese New Year! 農曆新年快樂!

Losing the rainbow in your life...

I just finished reading the 8th installment of the Princess Diaries novel last night
(yeah, you heard me, what's wrong with a guy reading PD??)
after all the dusting and vacuuming for the upcoming Chinese New Year,
and the whole novel is just plain annoying and stupid.

I used to love Mia Thermopolis (or POG for Princess of Genovia)
but lately, her "journal entries" are so whiny and annoying,
so Michael "fooled around" and gave away his "precious gift" to a random girl,
BEFORE he even start dating Mia, yet she make a huge deal out of it,
like a spoiled brat.

Well, thanks to her stupid beliefs that "precious gift" should only be given to "true love",
she and Michael broke up. And yet, she can't get over it. Sheesh.

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On the other hand, i stumbled upon a sad little blog known as FINDING RAINBOWS,
a blog chronicling the loss of the blogger's love, due to the infamous
"Irreconcilable Difference Syndrome" that famously plague Hollywood couples.
In his case, i guess the only party who suffered from that syndrome is the blogger's ex.

After reading his blog entries, it's feels as though i was reading my own life back when i broke up with H. Sigh...Sometimes, it's not good clinging on the loss,
i myself personally suffer from emotional breakdown and were on medication for months without anyone knowing. Imagine the heartache i suffered, and yet, i can't tell that to anyone since me and H's relationship is unacceptable to most of the people close to me.

What's worst, i stalked him for months, up till a point one of his honcho text me a threat, that i'll face the consequence if i kept on stalking H. Well, i really tried to get over that relationship,
i do, but guess what, in the end, H is the one who turn back and annoys me.

I really do felt a deep pang of sadness for Mr. Rainbow Man,
he seems like a really nice, sweet, loving guy,
what i wouldn't kill for as a boyfriend.
Well, not that i mean it that way, but like what i told him,
sometimes, these sort of matters are unpredictable, things happen for a reason,
my relationship, for instance, started off like a romance flick,
only it ended like a horror movie...
kinda like RED EYE which stars Cillian Murphy and Rachael McAdams.

Losing your "true" love might be painful,
but it's not worth killing yourself for.
Mr. Rainbow Man, i'm not sure if you'll ever get over your loss,
but if he's a jerk, he's not worth crying for.
I'm not sure if my advice will be any help at all,
but hope you'll see that lots of people around, have had worst heartbreaks,
and they sailed through, leaving the past behind.


Disclaimer: it seems most of my entries are really crappy and unorganized, haha! my bad, since i never spell check, never grammar check, and just simply write whatever pop out in my mind right then~~ lol!!!