Awkward...

I went to the teacher's lounge yesterday,
to MR. DB's own office
(hey, every lecturer/Prof. gets their own private office)
and was going to have a chat with him, and get some
extra reading materials from him. (Odyssey!)

So i went to his office, and there was someone else in there,
and when he saw me, he flashed this really adorable
smile at me, y'know? And all i could do was blabbering non stop.
Here's a recap of my conversation with Mr. DB.

"um, uh, i, uh, um, guess you're occupied or something,
so uh, i guess...um, next week? i mean i'll see you...uh...next week..?"

And he was like,

"could you give me a moment please?"
"deng yi xia"

And that got my feet wobbled.
Anyway, i waited for like another 15 minutes or so,
he invited me in.

So, next thing was that he was commenting on the weird
black dots and grainy mouse poo thingie on the floor.
It was awkward, and he was this close to me,
i can even smell his breathe (musky, sweet)
(damn, i feel like i'm writing porn)
And he backed away, and i cleared my throat,
and then i looked at him,
and i was staring at the greenest eyes i have ever seen in
my live. I mean, it's sort of jade mixed with
the color of lush green fields..

And i was like...sort of a faze,
a dream or something.
All i could do was balbbering a lot of "uh(S)"
and "um(S)".

And after i got the reading materials i requested,
we just...well, it goes like this.

me: "Uh, ok then. thank you so much, and sorry to bother you.."

DB: "Ok then. Anything else ? i have a lot of other books,
but they were from the library, so maybe we can go there together
sometime, and i have a scooter.."

me: "Whoa, ok. Um.. when?"

DB: "Well, whenever you're free. Do you have my number? 09xxxxxxxx"

me: "Uh, thanks, um... ok then. I'll see you on Monday"

DB:" Sure, Wyatt. Come by anytime. Maybe yo could give me a oral
report sometime?"

me:"Sure i will. Thanks again"

So, he walked me to the door, and when i press my hand
on the door frame, his hand brushes on mine,
and that got my face blushy and there's like a bunch
of butterflies in my tummy making me excited and sick at the same
time which makes me wanna puke.

So, that's about all. My first chance,
i blew it. Darn. I really wasn't looking for any
physical excitements, don't get me wrong,
but my crush for him is...i don't know how to
explain this, mutual? Maybe.

I was on the verge of kicking myself on the backside.
Sheesh... But i have his number. That's a great thing
right? And he did asked me to pillion riding with him
to the library of the central school area.

That should meant something right?
RIGHT?

Sigh....