Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Thoughts on Life

"Do you understand the rest of your life is being shaped right now? It's up to you, you can walk out that door and fail this class and take your chances, or you could sit down, listen, and learn from somebody that's been there. Choice is yours. The rest of your life is a long time and whether you know it or not, it's being shaped right now. You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate, or bad luck, or bad choices, or you can fight back. Things aren't always gonna be fair in the real world, that's just the way it is. But for the most part you get what you give. Let me ask you all a question; what's worse, not getting everything you wished for or getting it all and finding out it's not enough. The rest of your life is being shaped right now with the dreams you chase, the choices you make, and the person you decide to be. The rest of your life is a long time and the rest of your life starts right now."

After finishing a re-run episode of One Tree Hill, one quote uttered by Haley stuck on me.
I am always the guy who just sits around sulking at my poor fate, but, come to think of it,
did i ever put in enough effort on changing my circumstances?

I know, one part of me might be arguing that i gave up medicine to pursue what i love proves i do realize i have to chase my own life, but, i never really knows how to shape it right, and there are times i just felt like things and circumstances are as bad as how it was.

Why do i always wave the white flag whenever i felt defeated? Was i ever being defeated? Or it is my own self that defeat myself? I told myself long ago, that i want to be this this and this, but now i felt that i'm doing things backwards, and i never fight back, not even a hint of struggling when i received blows.

I want to be someone, and not just someone someone, but SOMEONE, to prove to the world that i ain't scared of living. I need to shape things in the right mold, i want to live!

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